Questions on escalation to shemale porn

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by confused_okat, Aug 22, 2013.

  1. How did you feel about it? Did you feel like other porn was suddenly boring and that this new genre suddenly turned you on completely, both mentally and physically?

    Or did you feel like you weren't really turned on to it but that it was the only thing you could get an erection to?

    I'm just trying to get an idea of other people's escalations to shemale porn. With me, even though I felt bad after PMOing and outside of PMOing, whenever I had the urge to PMO or during PMO, I couldn't help but feel turned on by it mentally as well as physically.

    Were you also turned on mentally (having thoughts like "wow, this is amazing" or "this is so much hotter than normal porn", or was it just physical with you?

    Just trying to get an idea.

    Thanks
     
  2. Hellborg

    Hellborg New Member

    I never did this.

    What kind of shemale porn? Femdom, lesbo, what?
     
  3. aristotle

    aristotle Member

    I first got into shemale porn when I was bored with regular camgirls and I saw the shemale section. So I check it out and it intrigued me. And for some reason watching the shemale camgirls turned me on when I was bored with the regular camgirls. And then I started looking at shemale porn and that turned me on too when I was bored with regular porn. But I would still look at regular porn most of the time, and only occasionally look at shemale porn. I don't know what it is that I find arousing about shemale porn, it is just different than regular porn, I think that's why I watch it.
     
  4. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    I watched every category of porn basically to the point where extreme fetishes even beyond shemales were boring but originally they were so much more exciting then regular porn, but after a year or 2 If I was watching shemale porn it had to be post op because of the escalation than eventually that got boring as well.
     
  5. ImTrying

    ImTrying New Member

    I wouldn't say that straight porn suddenly becomes boring but as it so often goes, when you watch enough porn you start craving new kinds of porn to get off on.

    It took me a while to get into anal porn, but then that became the only kind I ever wanted to watch. Then eventually that lost its novelty, so I went looking for something new I decided to try looking at transsexual porn.

    It probably didn't do anything for me right away because a lot of them look pretty manly, but eventually I probably found a few that looked like legit women except for their additional part. And that was super exciting because it was new and freaky.

    I should point out that initially I didn't even know transsexuals were men that transformed themselves into women. I thought of them more along of the lines of women born with penises. That sounds so stupid to me now, but so be it. Had I known originally that they were men, I might have been less inclined to fantasize about them. But honestly I probably would have eventually because there are a lot of convincing ones out there. Even after I learned what they really were, I continued to PMO to them.

    And yeah there was some shame in there afterwards because it made me question my sexuality. But the more I just tried to accept it, the more I felt a bit of pride, like hey I'm so open-minded.

    But to answer your question, I was definitely turned on mentally. Partly because it was just something new. Partly because this changed how dominance worked in my fantasies. I was never an aggressive guy in bed, but in porn, the man is usually the aggressor. So straight porn didn't always align with how I would behave in the real world. But transsexual porn did because the woman there would sometimes be the aggressor, and it excited me to imagine a woman being that way with me.

    So yeah, I was completely turned on by that genre of porn, emotionally, physically mentally, behaviourally.
     
  6. flamingwind

    flamingwind Guest

    The first time I did it was by pure curiousity. I was disgust and told myself Wtf and never watch it ever again. That was 6 years ago. Now I watched so much of it that it became stale like regular porn. Well everything got stale to be honest, I watched everything there was to watch but gay porn. Nothing remotely do anything to me so that make my session long and boring
     
  7. saynotoporn

    saynotoporn New Member

    Like with music, long term porn usage makes you develope very specific flavours. Like hentai, humiliation/bondage, shemales or whatever. Its because your desensitized to normal porn, so you look for something stronger. when you find that perfect video/cartoon/drawing/whatever its like you have found heaven. What you searched for, or how to find it wont leave your mind even though you might not have been there in the last few weeks/months.
     
  8. Am I the only one, who whenever hears a word starting with "trans-" automatically thinks of transsexuals? Like transit, translinear, transformation etc. Every time I hear these word I get sad and feel shame because of my past (that is, escalation to shemale porn). It's like the shemale porn left a hole in my soul. It's my most darkest secret.
     
  9. SuperGreg

    SuperGreg New Member

    For me, for some reason I found penises very erotic. I like my own, I like looking at it, and it was a turn on to see other ones. However, seeing the whole man's body or even two men together was still repulsive to me. Shemales were a hot middle ground. It was kind of a way to indulge in "forbidden" gay porn without it being gay or repulsive. I could see the body I wanted and the penis, which shows arousal infinitely more clear than a vagina. You can't tell if a woman in a picture or video is really turned on.
     
  10. Having a terrible day on day 41, and my brain is telling me to confess the whole depths of my addiction. I'm too embarrassed to post this in my journal just yet, but ill out it here to start.
    TRiGGEr WARNING
    I use to watch shemale porn. I escalated from regular porn, to girl on girl, to blowjobs to female domination, then strap on, then shemale on female, then shemale on guy. I knew I wasn't gay, I Loved sex and my time with women and girlfriends. Yet here I was watching a blonde shemale fucking a guy from behind and somehow getting a rush out of it. It escalated further to no condoms, then cumming on the guys, then cumming in their asses and mouths, then orgies of multiple shemales cumming on a guy, and then I had to have an America shemale dominating a man and talking dirty. The dirtier the better. Then I would only watch those Americans videos when they finished in the ass or mouth. Then I found myself looking for things to put in my ass to simulate it. It made me feel like they were in control of my pitiful life. As soon as I would MO it would be just this crushing shame and creepiness. It was so bad my nickname was "creeper" because, well I always looked creepy. Everytime I tried to quit I couldn't. Only finding this site stopped me. Then I looked and went "holy fuck, that's a dude with messed up plastic surgery fucking another dude! I haven't looked back since.

    Can't believe I typed that let alone let it out, that's some fucked up shit. O well, that's who I WAS not who I am.
     
  11. AlexP11

    AlexP11 New Member

    I discovered shemale porn by accident and it was at first glance more exciting to me than regular porn. So did some transexual and gay porn, but not all. During my final days of watching porn regularly i was watching regular + gay + shemale + transexual + orgy porn. Then my erection dried out completely...
     
  12. My mind couldn't accept the confusion of seeing breasts and a penis on the same body and they weren't even attractive. Major turn off, like gay porn.
     
  13. Frye

    Frye New Member

    When I was about 16 years old I saw the word 'shemale' now and then when searching for porn on my parents' computer. I was curious and downloaded a file. The shemale had a very masculine face, low voice, manly hairline... Looked like those female bodybuilders but with a penis. I was disgusted and never wanted to see any shemale video again.

    When I was 20-21 I started to PMO a lot, before that it was usually MO on magazines or fantasy. At a certain point I had trouble to O on female P. I decided to look up a shemale video just once, just to see it was really that disgusting. I found out they could also look very feminine and a new fetish was born.

    At first it was 50-50 female/shemale but later it became about the only thing that could arouse me. I changed it up now and then with other fetishes but I kept a thing for shemales, although it's only the feminine ones. I don't know if it will go away, I'm doing my very first reboot right now. But I don't feel ashamed about it like I was a couple of years ago. And after all, it's all just a fantasy.
     
  14. sidney1990

    sidney1990 Guest

    yea im deep into shemales... they're a headfuck and i keep relapsing whenever im bored and have nothign else ot do
     
  15. mxsurfer

    mxsurfer New Member

    I wish I could know how many went back to "normal" after beating this "escalation". I myself have fallen down to this level for years now. Like a few others here I am not sure it is entirely just escalation anymore.

    I stopped posting here since I thought I was over it and can beat porn addition myself and by coming here it still showed that I am being controlled by it. Needless to say it did not last. I use to post under maxsurfer not that I posed anything useful.

    I went as far as meeting with a shemale, terrible a nightmare, will never do it again, but I still watch the porn. Currently I only watch cuckold and shemale porn and no regular porn at all.

    Until there are real numbers on this I have to think there is more than just porn.
    Things I do know is that I never watched gay porn, cant see holding hands with a guy or kiss, no interest in being fucked, certainly not straight for sucking off a shemale, suffer form low self esteem, bad view of myself even tho others do not, suffer from add, only had sex with very few woman and never dated as a teen (strict religious family were sex was seen as the work of the devil).

    Why is then when I stay away from porn for quite some time and relapse 90% of the time I go right for tranny shit. Christ many years gone out of my life over this this shit. I would rather know to be gay than this tranny stuff since that is very far from natural human.
     
  16. TheUnderdog

    TheUnderdog Active Member Staff Member

    mxsurfer,

    You don't like women?
     
  17. crazydude

    crazydude Guest

    I've gone back to lesbian porn now, i found shemale porn really really arousing at first but not really my cup of tea anymore once i stopped being afraid of what people would think it lost that rush it gave me and became boring.
    When i first found shemale porn it was new and exciting but now id rather a woman with a pussy to be honest or a woman with a strap on aint that the same thing but its a real woman. Fear is what drove my attraction to shemales but once the fear was gone the attraction was gone. It don't look right seeing a woman with a dick anymore not disgusting but just not right. I think part of me is still curious about the idea of it because its basically gay sex with a woman there is no other way to explain it.
     
  18. mxsurfer

    mxsurfer New Member

    Underdog,

    Yes I do like woman, what does that really say in the end. As I mentioned, currently at least, I have no interest in wanting a meaningful relationship with a tranny or with a guy. At one piont I stopped quite a number years ago I would say for 8 months to year+ all porn. Yet here I am today. Why did I not escalate further, maybe i am not being true with myself? Maybe my will to deny my real desire is stronger.Maybe it is low self esteem and being self conscious about how i look all the time? Browsed this stuff even a few times while I was married. I have one post under maxsurfer that went over that.

    I have been browsing tranny porn for over 10 years. What/when is the next escalation? I am still not on to gay porn. I guess my piont here is that if it is escalation why did I not graduate to gay porn yet?

    Crazy dude, I am not sure I understand your piont about the strap on as yet I have no desire to take it in the the rear.

    With ED I avoid woman and wonder if that plays a role since sexually they have no use for me. I had a few failed attempts. My erections are weak even watching this porn. I go flacid very quick once I stop stimulation. You can't have sex like that trust me.
    When I do stop pmo it does improve a lot and at one piont before I got married it was fixed. So truth in stopping self abuse.

    I am not trying to attack what is being said about all this stuff, I just really wish for proven facts around this tranny stuff. in my opinion then once you make to tranny porn it's over you never recover and it will be a battle for the rest of your life with no guarantee you will not relapse an undo perhaps years of staying clean and maybe since it is due to my own denial of who I am. Due to my strict upbringing, perhaps that pathway is harder to rewire since that was 1st.
     
  19. ppycat

    ppycat Guest

    what happened to friction? he should've already been here to tell you are how gay you are ::)
     
  20. crazydude

    crazydude Guest

    mxsurfer why would u prefer watching a tranny over a real woman. If your into watching a tranny fuck a man isn't a woman with a strap on the same thing except a real woman or a tranny fucking a woman why not just watch to lesbians with strap ons? not try to start anything just curious about your answer
     

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