I am 32 and started viewing internet pornography in high school. After high school I went to a Christian college and hit the firewall so many times from my dorm room that the school cut off my internet access. Unfortunately for my porn addiction, I transferred to a public university where it was easier for me to feed my internet addiction. As a Christian, I felt like I was living a double life as I tried to keep my porn habits secret from my friends and family. The people I did tell didn't know how to handle this information, and I wasn't really given many tools to fight my addiction. So all through college I struggled with PMO to varying degrees, all with massive amounts of guilt. After my undergrad, I continued on to graduate studies, where it was basically the same story for a while. During this period, however, I met my future wife. I told her that I struggled with internet pornography, but she didn't really grasp the issue. I don't think I really grasped the issue then, either. After a couple years of marriage, she found out about my continued struggle with internet pornography, and I started attending a recovery group that met at a church. This group was good, but I often found myself failing at least once a week. The freedom that I wanted I was never able to grasp. Basically I am still at the same level. I go through periods where I binge for hours at a time for days at a time, and sometimes I go for a couple of weeks without watching any porn. Over the past couple of months I have watched and searched for porn waaay to much, and I finally googled 'how can I stop watching porn' and I was thankfully led to yourbrainonporn.com. I found the information on the chemical and physiological aspect of porn addiction very enlightening, and it encouraged me to renew my battle against pornography. I think that this forum is going to be very important for me, as a place to be accountable and to seek advice on how to overcome my porn addiction. As a Christian, pornography is a moral issue for me because it is replacing the intimacy that I should direct to my wife with a false promise of easy intimacy with a projected object. However, my brain has developed very strong chemical pathways that I will need to rewire to have success. My goal is to overcome my porn addiction because it is a barrier between my relationship with my wife and myself, and it also effects my spiritual relationship with God. I am pretty sure that I will fail and relapse, but I want to be on the path to recovery, not self-destruction. I want to progress until I die by God's grace and for His glory. I am currently on day 8 of my reboot.