porn and robocop (35. hard mode. ed)

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by thirdman, Apr 13, 2021.

  1. thirdman

    thirdman Member

    Hi everyone. Day 1.

    I got a random piece of junk mail from here because a bot sent me a message so I'm gonna take it as a sign that I should start journaling again. I used to post on here about eight years ago and I've been struggling with nofap again recently.

    I can't really lie, the battle has been pretty much constant over the last eight years with weed and porn. I was in a really great relationship for two and a half years, where I worked around my ED issues with the help of Cialis. But things ended pretty badly. The last year of the relationship was long distance and while we were apart I could fall back into my old habits. I needed her around because I couldn't stop my habits for myself.

    The relationship ended at the beginning of the pandemic and I used that pain in a really positive way: I went back to counselling again. I've gone back into education and have nearly finished the first year of my degree. I stopped smoking weed and tobacco.

    But I just can't shake the old PMO habit.

    So here I am. My porn USB stick broke a couple of days ago so the universe is really sending me a message! I don't really feel like I have anything to add at the minute, I got to a week PMO free recently. Really I just want to feel cleaner and stand-up taller and make more eye contact and not feel so ashamed. I got to 70 odd days, so I know I can... and I know I just have to face things one day at a time. That's why I'm here, just to unload and read other journals and success stories. That's what I did during my most successful period of nofap so I'm gonna try and repeat that success.

    Thanks for reading, please feel free to message me or reply, would be nice to go through this journey with some other people.
     
  2. dark red drifter vessel

    dark red drifter vessel Well-Known Member

    hah, brought back from the other side by spam, haven't heard that one before. whatever helps, helps, I guess.

    welcome, or rather welcome back
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  3. thirdman

    thirdman Member

    Thanks for the welcome dark red!

    It hasn't been a very good couple of days for me on the PMO front.

    Even more reason to come here and try and be accountable for my actions.

    Deadlines. They stress me out and always lead to a lil binge.

    DAY 1 again. It's like a depressing time loop movie.
     
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