Porn addiction kicked. Now trying to get my libido back

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  1. Forgotten

    Forgotten Member

    Re: Porn addiction kicked after 232 days hard mode. Now trying to get my libido back

    Thanks avesraggiana.
    Unfortunately I could not get the results of the test this week and I will have to wait at least until monday. I'm a bit upset because I was hoping to spend the weekend without thinking about these things, but I will try to go out with friends and have some fun anyway.
     
  2. Forgotten

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    Got the results of the hormones test today. Perfect; my levels are perfect. All the values are well into the ideal ranges.
    So now I know for sure that my lack of libido is 100% due to my past porn consumption (and lack of experiences with real girls as I grew up) and probably also to psychological reasons (depression, anxiety, and so on). I have mixed feelings about this. On one side, I'm obviously happy to be healthy; on the other side, I'm worried: will I ever go back to feel normal? I can only hope the answer is "yes".
     
  3. Forgotten

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    Quick update. Libido still somewhat lacking but I can feel some minor (and slow) improvement on that front. I masturbated an average of a couple of times per week lately, but now I think I will do a period of abstinence.
    One good news: morning woods are definitely improving. They are not 100% hard, and they do not stay there for tens of minutes like it used to happen during my teens, but at least they have become more frequent, harder (usually around 80% hard), and they stay there for 1 or 2 minutes.
     
  4. Forgotten

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    Ehi everybody.
    I login here rather occasionally but I'm still here.
    I made no further progress, unfortunately. Actually, a couple of weeks ago I had a slight relapse: I watched a few nude pics of a model and then masturbated. My morning woods have been non-existent since then. I felt like an idiot...
     
  5. Forgotten

    Forgotten Member

    After a very long time without having them, this morning I had a wet dream right before waking up. I'm 36 days no MO so I think it's quite normal to have one. What I think is not normal is that the dream was completely fucked up. Don't make me go into details, but it was a combination of old porn induced fetish and other things completely unrelated to sex. Now I feel very frustrated and worried: why my brain made me ejaculate on such a fucked up dream instead of a normal erotic dream? Especially after such a long time without watching porn. Does it mean that I'm still light years away from being rebooted?
     
  6. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    I still get the occasional porn dream. I think its just luck that on a particular day you had a wet dream it just happened to be porn related. I have had wet dreams to regular sex a week after relapsing and a porn wet dream 5 months without porn. I dont think it matters really.
     
  7. Forgotten

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    Makes sense. I will try to not worry too much about this things when they happen.
     
  8. Forgotten

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    Just wanted to say that even though I'm no longer very active on my journal, I'm still here, trying to fix my life bit by bit. Thanks to those who read my posts. I'll let you know if there is any important news in the next months.
     
  9. Forgotten

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    I'm back guys!
    I will post some updates in the next weeks.
     
  10. Retiringfapper

    Retiringfapper New Member

    Hey, I don't normally register accounts on forums, but I did it here just because I wanted to thank you for your time in writing the journal. When I read about your experiences in the first post I felt like I'm reading about myself. Now I will be trying to get rid of my many fetishes(being dominated, facesitting, girl fights and such) because it makes it hard for me to have sexual intercourse with my girlfriend. I will also go on without masturbation and not thinking about fetishes, or watching porn to cure myself. I hope you are getting a lot of progress, your journal made me feel kinda better! Cheers
     
  11. Forgotten

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    Hi! Thanks for your post. Good luck with your rebooting!
     
  12. Iamnobodi

    Iamnobodi New Member

    Forgotten,

    I was just reading through your journal - thank you for keeping us posted on your story.

    I wanted to tell you that you are not alone, I have been rebooting since Nov '13, and my libido has not returned. Like you I finally went to get my hormones tested and everything came back normal.

    Like you, I also had no experience of dating or any real sexual relations with girls in my teenagers. This reason I attribute to why I am experiencing near 0 libido at the moment.

    I think the best thing to do is to remain positive, that's the only way to live my friend, continue working out as you do, and try to meet a girl understanding of this situation.

    I'm even more screwed than you though as - I can't get an erection from masturbating through sensations, or through fantasising. So my situation is worse than yours!

    You will only keep improving, I can tell you that. All the best my friend.
     
  13. Forgotten

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    Hi Iamnobody, thanks for the support.
    I'm experiencing improvements, even though it's a very slow process. I will post a review of my 2015 before the end of the year.
    I wish you the best.
     
  14. lookingforlove

    lookingforlove looking to have meaningful and satisfying sex

    A couple of you have written that you have no/little libido, no sexual attraction to women.

    Maybe there is nothing really wrong.
    The symptoms you describe may be normal. When you are not in a relationship with any woman.
    A lot of these "dead dick" symptoms are on your own, solo, without an actual girl in your life. In a way..... isn't it actually natural to be aroused only when you can have real sex? NOt just fantasy?
    Maybe you will get hard when you are with a girl. Only one way to find out.
     
  15. Forgotten

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    I think a healthy young guy should be aroused even if he isn't in a sexual situazion, at least after a few days of abstinence. After all, libido is what pushes guys to find a girl, right?
    Before getting hooked on porn, I used to get aroused by girls on the street just by looking at them. I want to go back to that condition, because I think that that is the norm.
     
  16. Forgotten

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    So 2015 will end tomorrow. It has been a tough year, but overall I think I am a better person now than I was a year ago.
    My mood has been very low for most of 2015, especially during summer, but now I feel much better. I achieved many important goals, especially in my study field, and I'm ready to earn a master of science a few months from now. I also worked out a lot and my physical shape has considerably improved. I even managed to met a girl and make out with her, even though nothing else followed from that experience and I'm no longer in contact with her. Still, it has been a very positive experience, after such a long period of no contacts whatsoever with any girl at all. I'm still somewhat flatlining but I see some improvements, and I expect the situation to get better as my psychological condition improves.
    So, I am quite positive for 2016. I hope it will be the year in which I will write my success story.
    In a few hours I will go away with friends for a few days to spend new year with them. I hope to have some fun.
    I wish to those of you who read my journal and to all the rebooters a happy new year.
     
  17. Mike87

    Mike87 New Member

    I hope you have a good New Year... You're posts are very informative and help shed some light for people not as far along the journey as you. Good luck in 2016
     
  18. lookingforlove

    lookingforlove looking to have meaningful and satisfying sex

    [/quote]
    I think a healthy young guy should be aroused even if he isn't in a sexual situazion, at least after a few days of abstinence. After all, libido is what pushes guys to find a girl, right?
    Before getting hooked on porn, I used to get aroused by girls on the street just by looking at them. I want to go back to that condition, because I think that that is the norm.
    [/quote]

    I see what you mean.

    But what do you mean specifically by aroused? Interested, driven or walking around with a raging boner even though imminent sex is not a reality?
     
  19. Forgotten

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    I mean having your attention caught and getting turned on when you see a hot girl, and not just notice her like you would notice a beautiful car or landscape. I do not necessarily mean having an erection just by seeing girls, even though I remeber that that was not uncommon for me when I was a teen, especially when I was drunk ;D
     
  20. lookingforlove

    lookingforlove looking to have meaningful and satisfying sex

    Yeah exactly.

    You said a couple things.
    Let' s dissect:
    1. your bodily responses while drunk are not a standard to follow. :) Funny, though!
    2. "erection just by seeing girls....as a teen"........well i don't know if being uncontrollably horny is good??
    3. I see most of the guys agonizing over lack of arousal, or flat-line when recovering as a non issue: an excuse to "test" ie get back into self titillation, ie masturbation.
    Again...being interested, being charged, driven is great! But having a huge boner in situations where you aren't going to have sex immediately can't be an evolutionarily productive behavior, can it?
    I mean how would you dance with someone?
    How could you even be in public?
     

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