Hey dudes. Found this place via YBOP and r/NoFap, and Gary's link. This journal will chronicle my journey and anecdotes. My story is similar to most others' with a couple of differences on which I will elaborate below. 1.) I experienced an irritation/injury to my unit from overmasturbation - diagnosed as dermatitis, but basically cracks across my frenulum (banjo string) which made my unit feel raw, and I (maybe psychosematically) feel as though it has disrupted some nerve impulse 2.) I have long used my imagination to stay hard during sex with women, basically imagining/picturing porn & fetish scenarios 3.) I have very often used marijuana during sex, and almost always during masturbation. My condensed story: Fap/Sexual history - Hypersexual as a child, teenager, and adult. Masturbating since I was 5 or 6, and to porn for most of my life. I’m now 33 and experiencing weird ED – no unlike many YBON commenters. - Experienced some ED issues in the past but learned to ‘get over them’ through manual stimulation and some help with mental imagery. Typically would make out w/ a girl to get hard, but once I got there I ‘locked in’ and would maintain an erection - For past two years would have sex several times a week, but masturbate (with porn) almost as much. Porn had been gravitating into weirdness (I’ve always had some kinks/fetishes, but noticed some HOCD stuff – and I have zero homoerotic impulse). - Used marijuana frequently to enhance the experience Onset - About four months ago I experienced a weird ‘injury’ where a bunch of dry skin sloughed off my glans and left me with a raw frenulum. Dry skin had come/gone in the past, but with no consequence - Frenulum had cracks across it and felt very raw - right in the ‘hinge’ and pleasure zone. This left my unit feeling ‘scrambly’ as if I had disrupted a nerve or something. Sex/fapping didn’t feel good, yet I continued to fap/porn at least a couple of times a week - After a couple of months of not healing my Dr. Had diagnosed ‘dermatitis’ and prescribed a steroid cream for a month - Symptoms have largely healed and frenulum strengthened but some symptoms remain – mild ‘scrambly’ sensation, and sometimes feel a weird pang/response in my back, leg and foot (all on left side where the frenulum was irritated/cut ED - Although I can still get erections (if I manually stimulate myself or look at porn) they just don’t ‘lock-in’ - i.e.: they don't stay up if I stand up. There also doesn’t seem to be the same kind of connection/response when I get hard. - I can keep myself semi-hard by either continuing to look at porn or by exercising mind-control (I’ve gotten really good at this to stay hard during intercourse), but it’s a stretch and not very enjoyable (for me anyway) - Orgasms also don’t feel the same. Not entirely pleasant and almost ‘too intense’ - Overall – the unit has failed to stir even with enticing visual stimulation. No connection. It’s like it’s not even a part of my body. I’m on day 11 (or whatever) of my reboot but am struggling with symptoms and whether others have experienced the same things. Specifically – interested in hearing from anyone regarding ‘locking mechanism failure’ or their erections not really feeling ‘connected’ if you do achieve them, and not staying up when they do. Thanks guys.