I was reading this article yesterday http://www.salon.com/2013/01/13/did_porn_warp_me_forever/ this guy is from the generation that grew up on the internet, so had a different experience but something he said really hit home about how the first time he ever ejaculated was to an image on a screen, and wondering how that shaped his sex life. I grew up pre-internet, but as a teenager, i feel like i had more access to porn than most. I worked in a video store, and my boss was cool about letting us rent porn videos even as teenagers. I had a big stack of magazines, etc... Most friends just had playboy penthouse, maybe hustler. i felt i had the good shit! Since 12 or so, I jerked it to pics of solo females, and thoughts of girls at school, but the first time i ever ejaculated i was 15. it was to a picture in a girl/girl magazine, I had stolen from a liquor store (I put it inside a sports magazine and bought the sports mag) Would be 3 years before I got a shot with a real girl. by then i only fapped to lesbo stuff, so as i said in my first post, i couldn't get it up for her, or for my first girlfriend. Part of my issue is i was super skinny and not comfortable with my body, but the bigger problem is i knew i was too into my porn videos, and as soon as i cut back on them (almost completely) i was able to perform, and enjoy sex. I basically rebooted before I knew what it was. It's crazy knowing how long and how deep this has hindered me. If I look at the last 10 years of my life, the pattern is the same. Still just as attracted to women, but the problem is 10 times worse. The chat thing got so deep that, I thought if i could just get back to regular porn, i'm normal again. But not only was the porn already destroying me, it always is a pathway to the chat thing that destroys me further. It's clear i can't "have just one drink" so to speak. No tapering, cutting back, compromising. Just a straight purge. Cheers to anyone who can watch this stuff and not get consumed by it. It's clear most of us here don't have that luxury.