Thanks a lot, Saville. The truth is, I’m getting tired of thinking about ED all the time, and trying different things that don’t change anything to my problem. I spend my daily life being overwhelmed by my libido issues, and every once in a while, just for a few minutes, a few hours, it becomes clear to me that I’m seeing all this in a distorted way, that I create my own prison. I mean, I could at least use ED drugs and just stop thinking about all that. Not an ideal scenario, but it’s probably better than what I’ve been doing for 15 months (and probably my whole life). My rational brain plays tricks on me, it tells me, you haven’t tried everything yet, you’ve got this option, and this option too… It might not work, but you have to try it, since it worked for that guy, and that guy… Yes, I remember how the massage therapist gave me an erection. I’m not sure if it’s just a normal reaction, or if it means anything at all. I don’t know. With my girlfriend, it’s more complicated: I’m very attracted to her, but at the same time, I feel the weight of the years and past failures when I’m with her. We’re not sexually compatible, she likes it rough, I like it slow. But then again, I don’t know, am I just a weirdo with a contorted sexuality, or do I just really like it slow? I don’t know. Time will tell. Thanks a lot, Saville, for sharing all that. It doesn’t really give an answer to the question I asked, but I I think you heard the real question that was hidden under. What you wrote is probably real. I mean, 15 months away from porn, for most guys, is enough to heal from ED. It’s true, though, that some guys needed a little more than that. @wecandothisagain wrote in my thread he needed 550-600 days. Others needed 2 years. I grew up on porn, and had many years of porn consumption before I touched a woman for the first time. Maybe I need more time too. But, I don’t want to stay hooked on this idea eternally. Maybe a few more months, but not more than that. And I don’t want to be searching for a magic pill that will solve everything much longer either. I don’t know. Tomorrow, or even tonight, I might go back to the same mindset, feeling like a failure because I have ED, and be ready to try anything to solve it. But I think I’ll have to move on with this soon. Do I have to learn to just be myself, to allow myself to be a healthy male? I’d like that, and I probably need that. In all cases, I’ll have to change my views on sex and ED sooner or later. Right now, I’m in Limbo, because that’s where rebooting places you. 15 months is a pretty long time spent in Limbo, it’s probably time to start living a little more normally again. I don’t know if I made any sense. Again, thanks Saville for your sincerity and generosity, it’s really appreciated.