I am 27. When I was 13 I got addicted to PMO. As a result I developed severe PIED. I would never get an erection without stimulating my penis with my hand while watching porn. In order to maintain an erection I had to constantly stimulate my penis. If I stop stimulating my erection will fade away really quickly. I tried to have sex many times , I failed miserably, 0 arousal and 100% Dead dick. Although, Dick pill worked, it gave me an erection in the first round but I was like a dumb machine without any real arousal , in the second round I would manage to have an erection because of the pill but I would suffer from delayed ejaculation and dick would get soft. It was a huge frustration rather than an enjoyable sexual experience. In the beginning of 2019, I discovered YBOP, Gary Wilson, Gabe Deem and Nofap/Porn addiction recovery forums. I was blown away. My eyes were opened to the reality. I started my recovery journey seriously since 3rd March 2019. So, far I have recovered a lot. In last 13-14 months, my porn consumption reduced by 90% and Masturbation reduced by 70%. I'm not addicted to porn anymore. I don't have any urges or triggers to watch porn now. But I have never been able to go more than 51 days without masturbation. My PIED, is not fully cured because of lack of Rewiring. Although, I can achieve rock solid erection just from stimulating my penis without any fantasy or porn. Morning wood occurs 3-5 times a week with 70-100% erection. But as soon as I stand up the erection goes away within 2 minutes. My withdrawal phase is over. In the beginning when I was trying to stay away from PMO I was going through terrible mood swings, anger, irritation Complete apathy , numbness, hopelessness and extreme anxiety and OCD. It was a living hell for me. Fortunately, I'm in control now. Anxiety is still present but it's very manageable. My last PMO relapse was on 14th April 2020. I am creating this journal to make myself accountable and document everything related to my PIED recovery.