Hello, Here is my story (I'm 31 years old now): When I was 6-7 years old, I found about porn magazines and and porn movies (VHS) that my friends parents had and that we watched. So MO started from that age. Things didn't get better as I grew up with the fast infernet and all that free porn. Masturbated to fantasy and occasionally to porn pics until I got ADSL when I was 15. From this age I have watched porn almost every day, usually once, sometimes 3-4 times with orgasm (PMO). I didn't try to have sex until I was 19 (because of porn, it gave me more satisfaction and stimuli than real girls), and I barely got it up. I tried to have sex 3-4 times with different girls - I mostly got the tip in before the erection completely disappeared. About 3 years ago, I noticed that my erections with porn became weaker, I had to watch more specific scenes to even get it up. This scared me a lot, so I stopped watching porn, cold turkey. Also I noticed that I didn't have any nocturnal/morning wood. About 6 months later, after stopping watching porn, I meet the love of my life, a gorgeous girl with all of the qualities that I was looking for. I could not get it up and I had zero libido ofc. I then read about PIED and so on, tried Viagra and met with docs and psychotherapist and all had the same conclusion: it is psychological. Well none of the treatments they gave me helped. The girl stayed with me for than 2 years. We tried to have sex a lot of times and she was very supporting. About 6 months ago we mutally ended the relationship. Things I've tried: - Tried to masturbate (w/wo fantasy) once a week to restart the whole process. But I thought it just only made it worse, the penis got more limp after the MO. Have tried this sporadically during these 3 years. Maybe it was bad. - Hard mode for 6 months last year. Didn't see any notable difference. Doing hard mode now since the end of July. - Minimal erection (10-20 %) if trying oral or hand job from my previous GF. When we tried PIV it just went away. Condoms were even worse. - Noticed that when previous GF stimulated the glans, especially with the hand, for example with oil, it was a bit painful/not comfortable. Where am I now? - No PMO for 3 years. Have tried to watch porn 3 times, to see if it worked, well it didn't, no erection. - Still low libido/sex drive, ie. still flatline. - Nocturnal/morning wood returned about 1 year ago. Lately the erections have been 90-100 %. Waking me up a lot of times. - Wet dreams occurs 1-2 times a month. Have noticed that when I drink alcohol the same evening I often have WD. - Hard to control fantasies in the morning/semi-awake mode or before sleeping. Better control during the day. - Have had pelvic pain after orgasms (after WD and after masturbating) many years but it seems that these have disappeared, I haven't noticed any pain after orgasm during these 3 months. - Noticed seminal leakage last year but have not had it for at least 6 months. - Not touching my penis or scrotum, except when going to the toilet. - Exercising has not been prioritized. But this changed a month ago. Now trying to do cardio, 30 min, at least 3 times a week, but will aim at every day. - Eating healthy. Not smoking or using drugs. Drinking alcohol rarely/on occasion. - When trying solo/masturbating, I have to fantasize to get a bit hard, even then it hard to keep the erection. Without fantasy it is much harder. I remember those times when I was younger and getting rock hard when just looking at someone/something or even touching myself... So the only thing that can get me a bit hard is fantasy. My plan is to stop to fantasize and not MO for about 1 year. I will continue with aerobic excercise and I will also try to get sulbutiamine, but it seems to hard to get in Europe, at least some legit stuff. Please give me some further advice on how to tacle this.