"Penis" is the only thing i associated sexual pleasure with, not women

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by ultrafabber, Aug 19, 2019.

  1. ultrafabber

    ultrafabber New Member

    I began masturbating very early and have been masturbating exclusively up to age 20. Even after, sex was much rarer than my "solo" sessions. I'd say the ratio was 90% masturbation, 10% sex.

    While I have always been exclusively interested in women, it was in a visual way - and this should not come as a surprise considering that most of my "interactions" with women have been visual (either pictures or imagination).

    When it comes to physical sensations however, I do not associate anything that is womanly with pleasure, nor any woman body part. The only thing my brain focuses on when it comes to sexual arousal is.... "penis". Granted, it's my own, but it's still "penis". The look of penis, the feel of penis, the warmth or penis and so much more. Not the feel of a vagina or the warmth of one. Not the touch of a breast or lips or ass. JUST PENIS. PENIS PENIS PENIS.

    In my mind, sex = penis. Sexual pleasure - penis. Sexual arousal = penis.
     
  2. Onwards90

    Onwards90 New Member

    how long has it been since you have had sex.

    I think if you are watching porn constantly over the years and aren't partaking you can lose memories of arousal and as they say if you don't use it u lose it, you could possibly have desensitsed yourself to women and all you see is tits and ass and have seen every position etc possible , all you see is the objectification and eventually aren't Getting what you used to. Maybe you see the dick as something relatable and know when it's finished .most people seem to hold off to the end. It's a strange thing that has been conditioned , to blow your wad when an actor does because it's usually over her face, which is a turn on , but yes it is pretty fucked up when you think about , how we are conditioned to get off to these triggers. We seem to allow more and more and become more and more desensitsed

    I watched porn for years and it did everything it needed , naked women huge turn on ,watched cam girls made them horny with intense dirty talk, huge turn on. But yes somewhere down the line it stopped doing the same probably because I was an addict and also fucked my sex drive up by taking an ssri and ultimately avoided sex because of the dysfunction it had caused. So I eventually forgot about sexual memories how it felt etc and would watch porn to try and recover my sex drive, it could be you see the cock in the videos as then dictator directs where it's going and when it's finished , and if you become desensitsed to parts you should be enjoying yourself your pretty fucked . And need to stop

    I've fucked myself up rightly with the ssri use and compulsive porn use , when I abstain I can come back I would enjoy naked women, and I think about women real life but on a deeper level . Porn is more perverse. So ultimately abstaining or infrequent use is going to be the healthiest for you

    You myt be attributing penis to feeling or you have a penis fetish or your accustomed to seeing it and knowing how it feels, where as women you don't always know in the film's if they cum or are really into it
    Also you always want to finish so its possibly people build up to the finish porn is pretty fucked up how we from a young age are gradually conditioned.
    Essentially cumming when someone else does because it's built up to the finish and over the girl's face . The porn industry have this as common practice and are creating more and more extreme genres because they know we are all becoming more desensitsed . You don't see much soft porn these days where it's just a hot women moaning to climax ,

    Escaltion is a fucked up thing it can lead to all sorts , if your not getting laid you are forgetting the reality and actual feeling and may just be looking for triggers that you have been conditioned over years of use .

    Some people build up to tranny porn because they see a girl with her own penis and they know how she feels and it's can start out as disgust bit can lead to intrigue .

    Porn can lead to some of the most fucked up shit. Personally I wish I'd stopped it years ago


    18 years it took to stop getting insanely aroused by normal porn , now I need to abstain for a few weeks to months to return to normal now I have a fetish for sissy porn my brain is completely mushed. I have no desire to get with one, and when i abstain from porn all i think about is women and not in a perverse way but on a deeper level , it just seems to be something that has developed through online stimulation . When I abstain I'm fully into watching women again.

    I have become desensitsed , I have watched porn for 18 years , pretty much everyday . With a few months here and there without. At times 5 times a day. My brain is well and truly fucked up. But it's only when I over consume it


    Edit , I'm not sure if I completely understand , do you not enjoy the warmth of a vagina and the look and feel of a womens naked body , do you not enjoy her level of horniness , things like this ,you are going to feel her warmth with your penis , if your over exposed to porn and forgetting the intamcy In real life sex then you can become desensitsed. And maybe your not seeing the reality anymore

    Before I took an ssri and had been a long time since I'd had sex. Feeling and rubbing a girl and making her wet gave me an instant hard on feeling her rubbing against me , obviously furthermore a fully naked women . I think your forgetting the intamcy because your only looking at imagery. There much more to arousal than just a naked body especially since if your a porn addict and over exposed to majority of which imagery.

    Your obviously going to enjoy sex with how it makes you feel, porn is literally just jacking your own dick, your overstimulated desensitsed from the imagery and the real life intamcy and build up and all you see is a cock pounding a hot girl and when it's time to finish

    You should abstain from porn, build up relationships and have real sex .

    Porn is not real life, everything is staged , the reason you see penis is because the camera is set up to show it being inserted into a women and her enjoying it in many ways id say your watching too much and not enjoying real life enough. You can't feel through a screen, you can only force your brain to delve deeper and deeper into perversion to simulate but it's not reality
     
    Last edited: Dec 3, 2019
  3. tushar70001

    tushar70001 New Member

    hey brother nice post
    how is your recovery going on ? i had also taken ssris , antipsychotics on and off for 5 years and i had watched every kind of porn in porn categories and fucked my brain when i had left porn withdrawals hit me hard and that time i dont know these are porn withdrawals i went to doctor he presrcibed me antidepressants and this cycle repeat it for 5 years binge porn and ssris i think my nerurons are damaged i cant feel anything in my stomach whatever i eat or drink and i ate all the time and still feel empty now its been 2 years since ini left porn and 10 months since i left ssris i am feeling same withdrawals as it was before ssris i am back to pre antidepressant state seems ssris mask my symptoms and does not work it just numb my thoughts i am virgin 28 years old and i dont want to marry because of my small dick size these thoughts are killing me inside(anxiety) i dont know about my future
     
  4. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Active Member

    Man I am also in the same boat 22 years old. My sleep is messed up. Everytime I do it I can feel the pain in my lower stomach side somewhere near diaphragm . Chest pains are also there. If I sit at a place for quite some time and stand up there is certain pressure I feel in chest I stretch and crack the mid chest bone and feel normal. I have become very weak.
     

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