Out of the Question

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by Joost, Jun 19, 2020.

  1. Purity Power

    Purity Power Member

    Hi Joost, thank you very much for your consideration on my journal.

    How's life in your current bad space in the Netherlands ? Europe is definitely not the ideal place to live a Christian life, atmosphere seems so Godless despite the revival that may occur locally. Only Catholicism, Islam, Buddhism, Atheism, so sad and despairing, but at least you can win a lot of souls evangelizing... I hope you surpass this covidiotic dictatorship well too. PM me if you want to talk, I also have whatsapp and such, maybe we can work as accountibility partners daily checking in. I'm from Southeastern France currently. Keep it up, brother, stay blessed.

    nice verse from Proverbs by the way!
  2. Joost

    Joost Member

    Hi PP,

    Thanks for your message.
    Indeed Europe isn't the best place to be as a christian, but not the worst either. Frankly it doesn't matter too much to me. If you're really paying attention to God you can do well anywhere.
    The corona-matter is an annoying one indeed. It's a mass psychosis really.
    Oh that proverbs verse is spot on isn't it? I used it in my talk on the day I got baptized. The eyes are constantly seeking. I often really experience it like that and it's tiring, man.
    I'd be fine with doing some accountability work, but I can't promise it on a daily basis. It was really nice to see you write me a message here.

    I actually logged on to write a bit, which will follow in another post.
  3. Joost

    Joost Member

    Days don't count, people do.

    Hello folks.
    Overthinking leads to the wrong conclusions. Relaxation is what we addicts lack the most. We have a habit of obsession, which shows in many of us counting days, making graphics, statistics or what not. I remember doing that when I first got on the forums. I was excited to put my energy to use in a constructive way. Work towards the 90 day barrier and then you're finally free. Right. I'm not sure whether to laugh. That's like snakes-oil evangelism. And frankly it shows that it doesn't work, aside from a few success stories which don't prove much. We overthink too much! My thread is called Out of the Question for a reason.
    Thruth is, you are free right now. Whether you are on a 3 week streak or just have lost yourself in a 12 hour porn binge. Ok, in the latter case, you're head might be drowsy and you're probably hungry, but you're free. What? Jesus paid the price. You're free... That means YOU can decide what to do next, like in the most amazing sandbox game. This might need some time to sink in.
    Also being on a super-streak doesn't make you more of a man than anyone else. You're not more real, though you might have more confidence. But if your confidence only comes from the ability to resist porn for a given amount of time, it's a farce anyway. You're just as free as your fellow men. God sent his Son to deliver all.

    What do you believe?

    There's a way that seems right in the heart of a man
    And many angels of light in disguise destroying man
    So most chose to refuse the absolute truth
    Replace it with lies, use ignorance as excuse

    It's hard to conceive what the mind can't comprehend
    And harder to believe what the eyes can't understand
    We look to theory, philosophies and thought
    For a sure foundation in a belief we once sought

    While the shadow of truth, cast an image so clear
    The closer it gets, we reject it out of fear
    If we really wanted truth, we would give our lives for it
    Walk in its direction of light, for God's glory.

    (From Grits - What do you believe?)
  4. Joost

    Joost Member

    Just writing here to get some things of my chest.
    I've realize that much of my worries come from people who love me the most. People worry for me, not even giving me the chance to make up my own mind. It annoys me big time.
    I haven't been assertive enough, but things are changing. I'm more chill with being me, regardless of what others think. And that's the best state to be in. Exactly how God wants it as well.
    To NOT present yourself better OR worse than you are, that is essential! That's what it means to be real.

    Alas, today I did some home-improvement. More work is left for tomorrow.
    That's all I did for today. And I think that's all I really could do. I feel rather edgy today.

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  5. Joost

    Joost Member


    It's very simple to stay off porn without internet! ;)
    The minute I'm having access to the web, evil schemes enter my mind again.
    Far more productive without the www also.
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  6. Agreed. Great job. I've learned that random internet surfing, even if safe, can lead to bad outcomes.
  7. Joost

    Joost Member

    Checking in for once in a long while.

    I don't have that much to mention, which is good. The forum has slowly lost its use for me and I don"t imagine coming back to it a lot in the future. I"m going to dare myself into using a smart device with internet again, which is risky, but I'm of good faith that i'll be able to overcome the temptations.

    I hope you are allright, fellows.
  8. Joost

    Joost Member

    Checking in on my birthday. I turned 33 today.
    Currently i'm back in the psychiatric department. It ain't easy, but it could be worse.
    I'm slowly coming to some conclusions, taking me further away from temptation.
    I've kept myself busy with photography and writing.

    Here's a little something, I thought and share with you guys.

  9. Rudolf Geyse

    Rudolf Geyse Active Member

    Skills that kills!
  10. NewStart19

    NewStart19 Well-Known Member


    Not sure where your interest in MCing lies, but if you are a fan of the art and like freestyling, I definitely recommend checking out Harry Mack. He's taking that branch of hip hop to the next level, and there is plenty to learn by just observing him.

    Thanks for sharing your bars with the rest of us. Wishing you the best with your other endeavors. Godspeed.
  11. Thelongwayhome27

    Thelongwayhome27 Well-Known Member

    Hey Joost, happy birthday man !

    Cool video dude. I like the filming angles and sequence.

    Take care !
  12. Joost

    Joost Member

    The sole reason people relapse is because they try to escape reality, which is a futile thing to do. Basically they are running from God's love.
    I'm clean for weeks now, but the habit of running is still present. I receive lots of love, but I suffer with giving it, Sounds much like porn huh?
    Giving love takes timenand, care and attention, while porn is a short-circuit type of thing. Its the opposite from being present.
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  13. Joost

    Joost Member

  14. Rudolf Geyse

    Rudolf Geyse Active Member

    Spot on in your last post. Also, this song and video is an all-time top fave of mine.

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