Hi everybody, About myself I'm a 20 year old student with masturbation/pornography addiction. It started, like most guys, with magazines at around age 11-12 gradually escalating in teenage years with the advent of broadband Internet. Only around age 18 did I realise the error of ways and the dangers of this now matured obsession. I began searching for solutions. Experiences Throughout my teenage years I had anxiety talking to girls I found attractive, luckily my friends & social circles somewhat forced this out of me, however I am still a virgin with little experience of relationships. The closest I've come to sex is kissing & touching. Before discovering YBOP, reuniting.info & other similar resources I have had varying successes with giving up PMO. I always was lead to believe that masturbation healthy with no significant drawbacks. This clearly contradicted with the strong feelings of regret and shame I would feel after the act. The main aspects in my acceptance of this addiction were: - The feelings I felt after indulging - The crippling effects of these feelings - The irrationality of my further indulgence despite these feelings Attempts I have always found it easiest to give up for long periods when I have less stress, like holidays. My longest recorded no PMO attempt has been 26 days (March 1st-26th 2012). Before this attempt I would struggle to go for periods of 2-3 weeks (max) without PMO. These attempts showed me positive benefits of no PMO before I visited sites like YBOP. I just tended to feel better and be more productive when I wasn't PMO'ing. I only discovered YBOP/reuniting around a month or so ago. Benefits experienced (no PMO, in my experience) - Increased confidence & less hesitation/anxiety in most situations. - More vitality, ability to get up earlier, train consistently and achieve goals. - Heightened awareness of surroundings & during social interaction. Drawbacks experienced (no PMO, in my experience) - After around ~ 2 weeks sometimes I would get peevish/irritable at other people. - Mild aching pain in genital area (only temporary). - 'Chaser-effect' after wet-dreams. - Spontaneous erections from the slightest interaction with attractive women (& I work with lots of attractive women so you can hopefully understand my dilemma). Views In my experience, mainstream society doesn't really offer much sympathy for this addiction (which is the unwitting affliction of so many) so I turned to my familiar companion; the internet. This journal will serve as a diary of progress and subsequent entries will hopefully highlight issues others will be familiar with. I have read around the subject of addiction and I believe there is no single solution, just pointers in the right direction. However I feel better for having started this journal, anyone considering starting one I'd say go for it since you have nothing to lose. Goals Some theories say that telling others your goals reduces your chances of success: http://www.ted.com/talks/derek_sivers_keep_your_goals_to_yourself.html However I feel accountable to others within this group and I want to be as truthful as possible so I'll make my goals clear. - 90 Days no PMO Other goals will be added as appropriate This is by no means my full story, I have a lot to say on the subject covered and many related issues. I am very interested to hear stories similar & different to my own and I welcome any comments and advice. Thanks. PS this is only my story, reading through others has shown me that our problems, although similar in some aspects, are very diverse. I encourage others to comment even if my story sounds completely different to yours we may have something in common, try me.