Onwards and Upwards

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by deadofwinter, Jul 5, 2020.

  1. deadofwinter

    deadofwinter Active Member

    This is my second thread on this forum. The first one was when I was 24 years old. This one.

    How I wish I could say I'm all clean as a 26 right now (27 in 5 days). I am not. Honestly, things got a bit worse even. From Femdom I managed to switch to Findom, which is basically a worse version of the former.
    It's a fetish/addiction in which the submissive male sends money to a pretty girl because "she deserves it more than he does" and because he is "just a loser". (wtf?!)

    3 years ago I wouldn't have understood how anyone could fall for such nonsense, but nevertheless here I am and I just relapsed by PMO'ing to weird femdom hypno audio while a Findom girl on Twitter DM 'made me' send her 50 dollars.

    Obviously I don't feel great right now. I had a 2-month streak going on and I was feeling super good in life. Things were turning around for me. Still, I managed to screw it up.

    I'm not gonna sit here feeling sorry for myself, I'm actually gonna forgive myself and move on. From now on I'll write about my journey to channel some of that extra energy that no PMO gives you. No more relapses from now on. I want to be free.

    Like an old friend that I met on my first thread often said: "onwards and upwards"

    My name is Mark and thank you everyone who is here on this forum to support each other. I wish you all luck!
     
  2. deadofwinter

    deadofwinter Active Member

    I do want to add that even though things got 'a bit worse' fetish wise. I think I'm still in a better place PMO wise and life-wise. I'm generally in a much happier place.
     
  3. Battlesword1

    Battlesword1 Active Member

    Hey mark, welcome back to the fight brother. I have never heard of findom, but it seems like a ridiculous racket. If you can, use technology to block those sites, so even if you are tempted to go back to it, you will have a website blocker on to hopefully catch yourself.

    The only comment I'd have to start you off is to find out where the lack of confidence stems from and try to resolve that. Because that may be your trigger.
     

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