I have been clean since my previous post, although today I had some psubs (Instagram) and I touched myself under the shower (nothing serious). I don't feel it was dangerous yet, so I'm around day 10-11 now. Before that, I had one week of P (cca. 3 hours in total), before that another 10 days of being clean. I have written into my "analog" diary a couple of times this week and I also start challenges with my accountability partner. I'm still not meditating, probably I can restart when I'm back home again (in two weeks' time). I'm having a good time now, full of adventures, meeting new people, girls included. I just feel that many of them like me, I can talk to them naturally, even flirt with them, but cannot make that crucial step (like kissing them or just touching their hand). Am I afraid of not being appropriate? Am I afraid of rejection? Probably both. I have never done it, in my teenage years, I had a long-term relationship, so I didn't have to leave my comfort zone in this aspect. I don't know how to acquire such skills. Nevertheless, I'm doing relatively well with my addiction and it makes me satisfied.