Hi there, I must be hooked on porn for almost two decades. I’m 35 now, single and have never been in a real relationship. I’m wasting my life away, have pretty much lost all interest in doing anything else than youtube and porn all day. I have no idea how I’ll overcome this. I avoid contact with other people for the most of the time out of shame. I feel purposeless despite knowing God has a plan for me. I already attempted suicide once being in a forensic clinic for my addiction. I attacked a woman on the street in a furious drift. Attempted sexual assault. Somehow all of this still isn’t enough to change my ways. I’m plagued by deep feelings of shame which is my detriment. Sadly. I have many talents and I used to be a very sensitive empathic kid. It’s hard to have hope when you fail yourself everyday. This is a try for the better. I have to try. Pick myself up again.