Back from the holiday. It was great, but it was much more isolated than I had expected, I was really out in the wilderness for four nights! Internet or even a phone connection was available only during the day only at the "main house". So I had only myself for company. I read books, went on walks, made fires, and watched the stars at night. But man it became tough not to relapse!!! By the third day I was starting to fantasise, sexual fantasies. Didn't succumb to M though, I'm still doing hard mode. Somehow I made it through! Told myself "just try to have this success story of making it through this solitary holiday. When you get home you can relapse!" Then I got home. And somehow I didn't relapse. I wrote out a list of all the positive things that have happened in my life since my no PMO streak began. 24 items! I just don't want to relapse now and mess up my good run. I'm on 149 days! I'm taking it one day at a time now, it's much harder than it was two weeks ago. But I'm proud of what I achieved in making it through the holiday, very proud.