I won´t make a presentation since I´m not a new member here. I just wanted a new journal to help assisting me with an extra strong feeling of meaning business. I want to start fresh. My latest journal was called: "Getting stronger week by week on the road to supreme self confidence" Profile name Decisive. When I first started in Januari 2013 I had a journal called "I want a new life. At age 36 it´s not to late" Profile name MarstonS. (or something like that...I don´t remember exactly)' I mean business now. I´m going to find out what life is outside of my house. What is it like outside of the internet and porn that I always escape in to? Most importantly, what is life like outside of my head? I know so strongly that I have been "escaping" my life. I just don´t face it. I hide by drinking a few drinks, looking at porn and getting in that sexual flow that the addiction creates. Most of all I have gotten so addicted to my smartphone that last night I decided to get rid of it. I took out my sim-card. And took a knife and destroyed the slot so the card would not fit in there any more. That way I can use it just to make notes on, listen to music, radio and the rest of the programs but there is no internet any more and it is not a phone anymore. I DO NOT WANT INTERNET IN MY POCKET 24/7 BECAUSE I ESCAPE IN TO THAT WORLD. Just like the warrior leader Tariq ibn Ziyad, ordered his ships to be burned so he and his men could not return but HAD to face the enemies I did the same. My boat was my smartphone/internet. The thing I want to conquer is my life. I can not have victory ower the enemy if I keep escaping all the time. That is why I burned my ship. I also don´t have internet at home now. No computer. I will write in my journal in the library or whenI´m visiting my parents house. No chans of relapsing there.