Thanks for the information. Yeah, I hope you can find that balance. I didn't know that having children was so hard on sleep. I've been trying to figure out how I can help you, if I can help you, but you seem to be having problems I don't know how to solve. I think you're doing great with 30 days no P or M, and practicing NoA! Maybe you should reward yourself with something non-addicting. Romance with the wife? Is she affectionate if you want it? Your stress level still sounds high-ish, maybe your wife and kids could do nice things for you for all your hard work.