Old Tom's Journal

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Old Tom Bombadil, Feb 4, 2021.

  1. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Well-Known Member

    Congrats, man. That's a good streak already.
     
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  2. Old Tom Bombadil

    Old Tom Bombadil Active Member

    Merry Christmas and a happy porn free New Year to all!
     
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  3. Old Tom Bombadil

    Old Tom Bombadil Active Member

    Despite the fine words (and genuine ones at the time I typed them) of my last message I have been using porn most days or nights from Christmas day - how rubbish is that - till now. I HAVE to get back on the horse or else I cant see a way out of this mess...
     
  4. Old Tom Bombadil

    Old Tom Bombadil Active Member

    Have hardly been on this forum in 2022 so far, but after a January that has been too often porn depression (last week was especially bad with four days lost to P) I have reset my counter as a first step in fighting the beast once more. So far this week I have had no O since Monday and no P since Tuesday which is a start - even a single clean day is a big achievement when you have been using like I have - BUT I am feeling the negative withdrawl effects of stopping after such a bad stretch. This includes insomnia, cravings, depression (woke up at 3.30 am today could not get back to sleep), irritability, inability to focus, interact etc etc. Its horrible! If I can hang on today, things will be better as family will be around me over the weekend and hopefully the withdrawl effects will have worn off quite a lot making the fight next week winnable. As I have said on earlier on this forum that I had whole year without porn before lockdown and had 90 plus day stretch during it - so I have done it before...
     
  5. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Well-Known Member

    Look whom the cat dragged back :D! Yo!

    There's always a price to pay. Either upfront, or later. I'd say sexual frustration is better than paying a greater price later.

    You need to build that streak, and things will get easier then. Sure footing, man, gotta get that strong grip on your existence...
     

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