It is with some trepidation that I begin my addiction journal. I am over 50 and have been skulking in the shadows of this forum for over a year and only actually joined properly recently. I have had skirmished with porn since my teens but full-blown internet-base porn addiction probably only kicked in the second half of the 2010s in part due to extreme stress related to my job. I had a 9 month porn free episode in 2020 but this collapsed due to Covid and job insecurities. Right now I am fighting intense cravings but get a great deal of comfort from the website knowing others have gone through what I am and come out the other side. One post I read a couple of days had a great bit in it saying that "porn is bad for me and makes me unhappy". Such an obvious thing but so easy to forget when the cravings come. I am hoping to remain porn-free long enough for the physical side of the addiction to lessen and then I can begin to think more carefully why I have such a need for this stuff in the first place.