Odyssey of a 20 yr old.( Regular update)daywise journey

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Mickeymouse, Feb 12, 2018.

  1. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 141

    I now feel like it's low T. My pennis leaks some water after I pee and wash my pennis. I don't know why some water comes out of my pennis. I was about to get my tests done for prostatis .But the female receptionist at the lab gave me a suspicious look when I went enquiring about the tests. And I was like I cannot get the test done here.
    I have to prepare for some jobs. But I feel I should not make the same mistake of joining the job like the previous job before getting myself right. Hence I donot know where my life is taking me.
     
  2. Mickeymouse

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    Day 151

    It's like an achievement but I don't feel it to be one. Because is still feel no energy or random erections or even the morning wood. I don't know what is happening with me. At the same time I have a streak of 207 days of going for 4 km walks everyday. I don't feel fit still. I still have chest pains when I sit for more than 10 mins at a place. My chest becomes stiff and I have to stretch just to relive the pain.
     
  3. Mickeymouse

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    How to change the title of the thread?
     
  4. Mickeymouse

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    Day 156

    I went to a zoological park with my brother and man i was sweating so badly which I do think realise until I wanted to click a picture with a front camera. I looked around and the people who started with us at the same time where all doing great good. I don't know one by just walking some 2 km how can I sweat such badly. I have been going for brisk walks for almost over 215 days now regularly I still do the understand why I become so sweaty with so less physical activity. I feel bad sleep leads to that.
     
  5. Mickeymouse

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    Day 158


    I had a wet dream. But again the same story I lekead some urine I don't know why it is happening the third time. When I have wet dream I tend to leak out urine too. Woke up just 3 hr after falling asleep. I don't know how will I fall asleep back. Also the semen was very thin.
     
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  6. Mickeymouse

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    Day 160


    I went for cupping. He applied 3 cups and after like 5-10 mins I was on the verge of fainting. I became dizzy and felt like vomiting. He asked me to press his hand just to test my strength and he said I have a lot of general weakness.
     
  7. Mickeymouse

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    Day 168

    I m confused as to why I always feel tired and not energetic at all. My face is also ndicative of that. I want to feel normal . May be I might deal with Ed and premature ehejaculati later. Still not able to fall asleep despite tiring myself and after waking very tiring.
     
  8. Mickeymouse

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    Day 172

    I had a partial wet dream.
     
  9. Mickeymouse

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    Day 176

    My psych told me to be less on the forum as I tend to gain anxeity when I read about people who did not improve despite on being no pmo for over 2-3 years. My symptoms of fatigue , low energy full mood still exits .I have no morning erections or noctirnoc erections.
     
  10. Mickeymouse

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    Day 179


    I just read that the weak bones are also due to the excessive masturbation. It was written to feel better avoid doing masturbation for a month and you will see improvement. But I m here almost 180 days clean. I want to have a step by step recovery from all the side effects that I have given myself by excessively indulging in the habit. Has anybody tried Ayurveda treatment for the side effects of excessive masturbation?
     
  11. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    Great Dude!
    What gets you motivated for it?
     
  12. Mickeymouse

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    I just have to go about it lakaf I have no other option. My pennis does not work why would I harm it more by doing masturbation again. I am worried I have to get a job and be at it unlike the last one where I was getting so tired and quit.
    Psych told me that I had depression. I too agree with her to an extent. As I feel so tired in the morning. I am mostly awake during night. And importantly i don't like to socialise much. I can socialize but that does not come from within .
     
  13. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    Same is happening to me now now a days..
    Still this year I am unable to cross 60 days mark.
     
  14. Mickeymouse

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    I feel hopeless these days. I keep searching for possible treatments for myself. Meanwhile at 21 I feel so tired that my hands shoulders and knee crack in the morning .I am literally regretting doing the pmo in the past. I wish somebody should have caught me and told me about the I'll effects and I had not been in a situation like this. You a typical 21 a year old is worried to get a job look for opportunities abroad .I feel I can't even go abroad again the tiredness depression will kick in there.
     
  15. Mickeymouse

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    Guys am I the only one who feel tired in the morning and don't feel like doing anything?
     
  16. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    Same here.
     
  17. Mickeymouse

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    I have taken anti depressant. I was watching a documentary on the life of a convict who was later proved not guilty he turned to 54-55 when he came out from the jail. He was getting married. But the very fact that I misused all the energy that Allah gave me into this habit has lead me here. Although I am not feeling so sad like I did because of the anti depressant. With not much physical strength now I feel hopeless during days sometimes and falling asleep even after a tiring day becomes a very difficult task. My chest pains so has my joints Become weak. Every time I give my self hope that by diet I will recover. But nothing seems to improve. But I keep praying in every prayer that I make you Allah SWT to make things easy and get me well. I wish I should not have masturbated this much and should not have watched porn. I am jobless as well. With so less energy getting a job and keeping myself motivated is a big challenge. I look prematurely aged I am almost bald from the middle. I wish those beautiful days that other 21 yr olds are enjoying should come back to me as well. I have wasted my life, the golden years. Regret often kills me.
     
  18. Mickeymouse

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    Day 183


    It's night 2.44 am and I woke up to a partial wet dream. Although I did not ejaculate. May be I was about to ejaculate but this time too I leaked some pee. Is it normal to leak urine while having a night dream?
     
  19. Lakaf

    Lakaf Active Member

    Thats weird.
     
  20. Mickeymouse

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    I don't know may be my bladder was full and by brain confused which to release.
     

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