Odyssey of a 20 yr old.( Regular update)daywise journey

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Mickeymouse, Feb 12, 2018.

  1. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Rightly said yearofchange.


    Day 3

    The pains are still there and by pain I really mean some terible pain . I haven't had faced this much pain in my life .I m not exaggerating. Guys anythoughts on low T related with this pains and bone density ?

    I really need to visit a doctor because nothing is really improving physically. I know until I put some physical stress I cannot improve but it really becomes worst when you don't sleep good and do physical exertion. Yes I do sleep but that not a sleep I can say for sure.
     
  2. yearofchange

    yearofchange Your actions matter.

    Oh damn yeah visit a doctor if it's like that. Where is the pain?
     
  3. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 5

    Now it's the fourth day since I did that physical activity. The pain has gone to 80% but such low physical activities should create problems for a20yr old. I shall visit a doctor after I complete my last exam on 24.
     
  4. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 6

    I had the urges. Actually I was tired after coming home it was a long day. But somehow managed by going to prayers. Guys what can be the most common reason for cracking and snapping of joints?
     
    Last edited: Dec 21, 2018
  5. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 7

    I had urges developed to masturbate after I lost playing pubg.often I get this feeling of doing this after playing pubg. I don't know why this strange thing is happening. But when I feel like also I don't get an erection I will have jerk off by hand. Anyways managing.
     
  6. yearofchange

    yearofchange Your actions matter.

    Playing games and watching lots of shows/youtube/movies tends to put one's mind in a dopamine-seeking state, so most people I've found on the site are more susceptible to PMO after playing/watching. It's important to learn to get off before the mind gets into that vulnerable state.
     
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  7. Mickeymouse

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    Day 8

    It was night and still is like morning 5.40 and I woke up 30 mins earlier sensing that I had urinated in my underwears. This had happened once previously too. So 2 instances till now. It was not a wet dream. In my dream too I was urinating and I did the same in reality. Is this normal.pls tell me is this a side effect of clonazepam?

    This is embarrasing guys.
     
  8. yearofchange

    yearofchange Your actions matter.

    Maybe try talking to your doctor about this side effect. Maybe clonazepam is not the best for you. I wonder if you could do a lifestyle change that would aid you in your sleep so you don't have to take that drug.
     
  9. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 9


    It was difficult I had these temptations today. But unlike those temptations I got 2-3 yrs back when I used to get erect at the same time.
     
  10. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 10- RELAPSED.


    IT WAS MY LAST EXAM AND HAD TO ATTEND A SMALL PARTY IN THE NIGHT AND AFTER COMING HOME I LOST IT.
     
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  12. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 2

    Yesterday went to a psychiatrist he told I suffer from hypochondria. But I still feel the tiredness cannot be explained by it. I m worried will I ever be able to fall asleep on my own. How about doing job with such less energy how am I going to do job I shall be an engineering graduate by mid of 2019.

    Please pray for me!

    Allahuakbar.
     
  13. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 2

    Yesterday went to a psychiatrist he told I suffer from hypochondria. But I still feel the tiredness cannot be explained by it. I m worried will I ever be able to fall asleep on my own. How about doing job with such less energy how am I going to do job I shall be an engineering graduate by mid of 2019.

    Please pray for me!

    Allahuakbar.
     
  14. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 4

    I somehow evaded the cravings in the morning . Actually since 4 days I don't take cloanazepam 0.5 mg and trying to sleep with melatonin 2.5 mg it is difficult I din't get sleep yesterday. But somehow relapsed in the evening .

    Cravings don't lead to erection although .


    Watched a video where a religious leader gave tips on how to overcome porn addiction. Link is below.




    The only thing that worries me is that in the video he said that a boy succefully quit the porn but cannot get erect any more.

    Pls pray that I improve and overcome all of this.
     
  15. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 1

    I went to college but seems everybody is doing good in Thier preparation of entrance for further opportunities and placements . On the contrary I am here who is still fighting this shit. I just need to get a good sleep which rejuvenates my body for a good tomorrow.


    Oh Allah pls ease my difficulties
     
  16. UK Don

    UK Don New Member

    Hope your good mate, in a similar boat with exams / placement opportunities. 1 day at a time I guess just keep yourself busy, best of luck.
     
  17. Mickeymouse

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  18. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Relapsed

    Somebody followed me with a fake profile on Quora. I already uninstalled Quora. But this fake profile followed cam on my Gmail notifications and the rest happened.


    Just a single small thing is more than enough to lead you through a terrible time.
     
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  19. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Relapsed

    I go 2-3days and relapse again. Perhaps that is because I am not going to college. If I go to college I feel drained while commuting itself so avoiding and studing at home itself.
     
  20. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    Day 2

    I rode some 50 km on my motor bike on total after I took my mom for some shopping and miscellaneous thing. And man I am so tired. When shall this get over
     

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