Odyssey of a 20 yr old.( Regular update)daywise journey

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Mickeymouse, Feb 12, 2018.

  1. Mickeymouse

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    Day 42

    Just now my revaluation results came I had 2 backlogs and neither of them got cleared. I am at one of most lowest points of my life. If I even want this to be converted into motivation I cannot because I don't have energy. Man I wonder how shall I manage another 2 subjects. I will have to do it. Inshallah.
     
  2. Mickeymouse

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    Day 44

    Still no signs of wet dream.. one my neighbours expired he was just 25. Renal failure as a repurcussion of high Blood.Pressure was the cause. Life is so unpredictable. I m worried what I am facing now can be a manifestation of some ailment. God forbid.
     
  3. Mickeymouse

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    Day 45

    No wet dream! I m worried.
     
  4. Mickeymouse

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    Day 49

    No wet dream!

    Why the hell is that not happening. No sexual drive libido.
     
  5. K-Dot

    K-Dot We gon' be alright!

    Dont worry about it, for example I have a wet dream every 7-10 days and it aint funny. Someone gets it more often, someone dont get it at all. It's all normal
     
  6. SalamanderPanda

    SalamanderPanda New Member

    Don't worry about this. You just need to cultivate some kind of calmness.
    After all, you can go to bed everyday, wake up, have enough to eat, earn money, and so on.

    Just keep going and your body will manage on its own.
     
  7. Mickeymouse

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    Day 50

    My body is paining I went for a walk on Sunday. It was like a 7km one. My legs are not paining. But the back and the fore limbs. I don't know the reason of pain. You know when I don't knew that this masturbation and porn was doing any harm my life was running smoothly. No tensions whatsoever. But the last 1-1.5 yr have been very terrible. Knowing your problems is the worst thing. That simply will not let you sit and relax
     
  8. Mickeymouse

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    Day 51

    I am very disgusted to think about sex. Although I am not married but I feel it's the worst thing to do. Perhaps it is psychological or hormonal. I don't know whatever it may be it has to go away before I get married.
     
  9. SalamanderPanda

    SalamanderPanda New Member

    Brother you seem very strong.
    Going on despite pain surely works out your brain and discipline.

    Have you been doing sports lately? Swimming e.g., good for your body?
     
  10. Mickeymouse

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    I occassionally try to put some physical exertion on my body like some sprints, walks but during sprint runs of 100-200m my thighs take the strain and take a week to heal . Lately I have been loosing my physical stamina .I don't know if it's related with my insomnia. I am just waiting in the hope that the day will arrive when I shall enjoy life like I did 2 yrs back.
     
  11. Mickeymouse

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    Day 53

    Yesterday had some slight leakage of some fluid while I was watching a movie. I should keep a check on watching any of the erotic scenes. I have my semsests exams after 10 days.
     
  12. Mickeymouse

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    Again an argument with the parents. They want me to open lights and sleep why because the prophet instructed to do that. Fine but I won't be able to fall asleep with the lights open. My parents don't understand. You know sometimes i feel there should not be anybody by your side to hear your side of the story . And when you shall become and accomplish yourself look at them and laugh. I feel alone.
     
  13. K-Dot

    K-Dot We gon' be alright!

    Where are you from?
     
  14. Mickeymouse

    Mickeymouse Member

    India.
     
  15. Mickeymouse

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    I feel I have also developed mobile phone addiction. Though I am not watching anything forbidden and sexual but I tend to watch a lot of YouTube which doesn't help in any way. It just helps me in overcoming my overthinking by killing the time.
     
  16. Mickeymouse

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    Day 56

    Low energy. I just read somewhere on the forum where evictus who used to be a source of great knowledge of healing back from pmo support the argument of "use it or loose it". I am now worried will I land myself in more trouble by not doing even MO?

    Man such type of dilemmas make my situation even worse.
     
  17. Mickeymouse

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    Day 57

    No wet dream as yet. Also low energy all the time. The sleeping pills are acting more like tranquilizers that helping me sleep. I more or less or rather bad after I wake up.
     
  18. Mickeymouse

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    Day 58

    Woke up and tired again. My joints becomes stiff. They pain. You know I am in a vicious circle again. I again feel that I have adrenal fatigue or sexual exhaustion. I read this article on this site and I feel I have adrenal fatigue too. And I have no idea how to overcome it.
     
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  20. Mickeymouse

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    Day 0

    relapsed to a sex scene of James bond. It was all intentional. Those internet ads popped up and I was like I should masturbate and see the quality of semen. It was too thin. Almost like water with very less viscosity. My pennis is now swollen. Always when I relapse after a decent time like after 20-25 days my pennis gets sswollen.can anybody exolain this swellin.Again a new journey to begin. I don't know when shall all this end
     

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