I've enjoyed hearing about the experiences and struggles of the other people here. I've found it very encouraging and beneficial. So thanks to one and all. In my thread, I'm planning to use it as a way to work through all the ideas I have about this problem, and hopefully it will help me make progress with it, and if it's of assistance to anyone else, so much the better. I'll try to avoid looking at things too negatively, and for that matter, too positively too. It's important to avoid both catastrophizing this situation, imagining myself as a troll living under a bridge. But also, it's important to avoid thinking that what I'm doing is something harmless, liking playing solitaire with a pack of cards. For me, spending time watching pornography is the worst possible use of time. It never makes me feel better. Almost any other activity, is preferable. The way I use it, puts at risk all the other good things in my life. So the way I think about it, any day that I don't use it, represents an improvement on how that day might have been. I've made some real progress with this problem since the start of 2018. I slipped up a few days ago, but that's okay. These things happen.