I tried playing BF3, but really it only made me angry. I am not great at video games, and that game is full of pros now. Made me remember why i quit. I will see if I can find any games that suit me better, that my pc can actually run. I have found that calling the friends I don't talk to as often is a good escape. Also it is a nice way of getting some stuff out there. Also I do some coding and CAD drawing, but atleast when I have urges it is hard to get real engaged in it. I agree, I have noticed in myself that I focus on flaws in girls to give myself and "out", a reason to not act on their flirts. This is stupid. I need to go for it more. Sounds like we are pretty much alike then, I have usually just made out for a while, and when it is obvious they want to fuck I have pretended to not understand or flat out rejected it. And then acted like I just didn't want it. So stupid. This has turned into me having to reject girls I would like to have have sex with, or even develop relationships with. I still think it would be weird to go for a one night stand, as it would not end in sex anyways I am pretty sure. But you are totally right, I need practise for when I find someone I REALLY want. This is a hard one. Yes, when I find a partner I will tell her about this. My friends as well for that matter. This is an important part of understanding me. I don't feel embarassed of this, but I don't want to tell too many people before I have beat this. I have told a couple that I felt certain would understand it, and honestly, it helped a lot. Just getting it out there and knowing you are not alone in it is really nice. Same with this forum for that matter. Porn addiction has actually changed me for the better, and in some ways I feel thankful for it. It has forced me to consider so many parts of myself I would otherwise not care to look into, and I think I will end up a lot more successful because of it. I am actually not worried about talking about this at all. I think it lies in the term you used, partner. Thats how I look at a relationship. It is someone you can trust to accept yourself, and work together with to create something thats bigger than the sum of the parts. I am not worried about how to talk about it, I guess I just would go for it.