Now on the fourth reboot.. the others lacked in perspective and willpower.. lets blast this addiction, reclaim our natural birthright as men and move boldly into life. The fourth reboot begins on Page 3, I would start this thread again if not for the awesome thoughts and advice submitted by many good people that I believe we can all benefit from. I am on Day 9 of my reboot, and I realised there may be challenges involved in this that may require the experience of others who are going or have gone through this! I will keep the backstory brief, as I want to focus on the present. I am a 25-year old guy living in the UK, who is soon to turn 26 in December. I was born with a medical condition known as "phimosis", whereby the foreskin cannot be retracted. I had a very extreme case where I had just enough room for my pee-hole. My first few sexual experiences with women when I was aged 15-17 involved very little physical sensation. I soon became much more of a giver than a getter when it came to pleasure, and could never manage intercourse or experience any enjoyment from manual, oral or penetration. I did not realise my penis was physically different, and sexual situations felt very unusual - where the hell is the pleasure in this??! I think around this point, age 17 or so, I did turn to porn, with all the classic escalation over the months and years - images, to video, to more extreme videos, etc. I never delved into really fetishy - usually sex or oral videos. A year or two of watching porn and I realised my penis did not look like the guys on the screen. I got to a doctor, was diagnosed with phimosis, and got circumcised. Still, I had become accustomed to porn and felt more comfortable around it than real women! Performance anxiety became a big issue before I could even get clothes off with random "One night flops". I have had a couple of relationships since the operation. First one only lasted four months, and I was dismayed to realise that having a circumcising wasn't going to answer all my problems - it was now psychological. Even with a hot woman, I required fantasy for arousal. I then had a three-year relationship, with ED being a consistent factor throughout. I attended transpersonal sexual therapy, and I think I only looked at porn maybe four or five times in this period. I could have sex unaided as time, other times relying on herbal viagra pills, and other times when feeling flat I did rely on memories & fantasy. I am on a break from that relationship at the moment and have decided, after reading the YourBrainOnPorn website, to undetake a reboot. I will be looking at 100 days and will review then. I will make a post in a minute regarding my first week and issues related, until then, just wanting to say hi and connect to you all. My healthy interests including conscious growth, meditation & spirituality, health/exercise/gym, physiology, massage, all sorts of music etc. My unhealthy interests have included some substance abuse, too much porn in the past, attachments to shame and fear - stuff most of you are likely familiar with. I have felt held back or blocked from growth for a long while, I am curious as to how much of this is due to having a dumbed down pleasure response. Although I have barely watched porn for years, the images still come to mind and my arousal response is still numbed. I have still been orgasming during my relationship so this is where I hope the total reboot (No MO) may help. Man, I really regret porn! So many missed opportunities and limited relationships. I am nearly 26 and refuse to have this issue affect me through my late twenties and thirties.