Hi everyone, I am very close to posting a success story here -- almost three years after starting to combat my porn addiction, I am basically porn-free and am together with a girl I really like. I have a niggling issue though. She lives far away, so we only got to spend one night together so far. I was nervous (virgin), tired and flatlining, so I didn't perform. It was OK though; I told her that I might need some time and she seemed very understanding. I'm about to see her for longer, and I'm more worried now. I started watching porn at the age of about 12 and quite quickly, I got turned on only by seeing anal sex. I eventually even had HOCD, though I am quite certain I'm only attracted to girls, really. I absolutely love petting and making out. I am hoping that once I actually try it, the sensations will make me get into vaginal sex quickly, but I am disconcerted that it doesn't seem to turn me on that much at the moment. Is there anyone here who has been through this and could share some experiences? Thanks!