Not been on here in ages

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by Mojo11, Jul 16, 2018.

  1. Mojo11

    Mojo11 Member

    I’ve been on with this big demon for so long it’s ground me down.
    I started to no porn journey years ago probably 2012 ish and I’m still struggling.
    I was having success but it’s not been regular in the slightest.
    I’ve been finding it so hard to do when in 2014 ish I had depression and still suffer with it now.
    It’s led to me meeting girls but having ocd intrusive thoughts and it’s totally put me off seeing girls due to these thoughts coming back.
    And the negativity at the minute and the isolation I’m feeling leads me back into relapsing.
    I’m looking for anyone who has experienced this to give me some hope.
    Wouldn’t wish this on anyone whatsoever.
    Suppose my I phone is a major player in this too. I’ve removed my app installer.
    I’ve recently been relapsing once a week due to this damn anxiety/depression/ocd
    Cheers for reading
  2. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    Hey mojo I feel for you sir. Do you have anyone in your life? Friends,family?
    You mentioned ocd thoughts. Can you elaborate ?
  3. Mojo11

    Mojo11 Member

    Heyyy sorry for my late reply. Really appreciate it brother

    I have friends and family but I can’t talk to them about this really can I.
    With the ocd thoughts it’s the random flip out that may hurt them.

    Obvs I never would which is how I need to approach that I supppse.
    Been on sertraline for it and I think it helps but I need to break the ice with a female again.

    Cheers and sorry for the very late reply brother
  4. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    Does your compulsive behavior cause you to become angry?
  5. Mojo11

    Mojo11 Member

    You still on here boxer ? Cheers
  6. kenshiro

    kenshiro New Member

    Hey man,
    don’t give up. I struggle with this addiction since a long time too.

    Do you see a therapist?
    That’s something that is really helping me. Is a big commitment in terms of money and time, but that is the first thing I would recommend to anyone in our situation.

    Keep us posted
  7. Boxer17

    Boxer17 Active Member

    Yes sir
  8. occams_razor

    occams_razor Active Member

    I don't have OCD, but I have some pretty significant mental health challenges. I get some pretty extreme mood swings, for example. I choose not to talk about my problems in much detail, but if I told you, I'm pretty sure you'd agree when I say they're significant.

    So what hope can I give you? Well, I used to feel incredibly intense shame fairly often. It was horrible. Doesn't seem to happen any more. I get other lousy emotions but at least I don't get that shame.

    Also, I'm on day 45 of a very strict streak. And the last few times I relapsed, there was no chaser effect. Just one-off relapses.

    I know what you mean about negativity and isolation leading to relapse. But it doesn't have to lead to relapse. You can feel like crap but still not relapse.
  9. CJJackson

    CJJackson Active Member

    Hey bro I’m in the exact same position. I’ve struggled with OCD most of my life and porn addiction kind of heightened it. I’ve made great improvements on both in the last year but I know I still have a lot of work in front me. I agree with boxer tho seeing a therapist helps on both fronts good luck and don’t give up man!

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