New Life Now

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by TheAndersMan, Nov 24, 2012.

  1. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    How odd that I have not yet defined addiction on this journal.
    I will soon have a working definition.
  2. kees

    kees Who took the cool out of the coolidge effect?

    Oh yes, our very own Pieter Bruegel de oude. How could I not see that?

    Such a striking parable.
  3. Monkey

    Monkey Everyday is a success.

    Good work finding the cycle. Now use that to your advantage. Don't forget about it.
  4. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    Thanks Monkey, I won't forget.

    Well, I had perhaps my first real temptation in a while to find something involving gorgeous nude or semi-nude women. Sigh, if only the form of woman were not so often taken the wrong way. Oh, well. I can't get started on that. The beauty is true. I don't understand the tendency to lustfully suffocate it in self.

    I don't remember in what the temptation presented itself.
  5. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

  6. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    Tempted toward porn quite a bit for a short while today.

    what I think caused it: some things to deal with that it would have been easier just to procrastinate about.

    I initially did procrastinate for a few minutes before getting started. That lead to negative feelings. Porn presented itself as a temporary escape from such feelings. Porn is a way to procrastinate while temporarily deadening the conscience. The more one uses porn though, the more the conscience seeks to be deadened again.

    I believe such is key to my addiction cycle.
  7. Julesb69

    Julesb69 Be the change you want to be

    It's nice to hear people think their way out of the problem. I toally agree. The porn fantasy is a really powerful tool for me to escqape with. So here I am 40 days abstinent and facing all those feelings I'd otherwise be runnning a mile from

    Good luck with your mission
  8. Monkey

    Monkey Everyday is a success.

    I'm glad you were able to identify that - hopefully you can use this to your advantage.
  9. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    My bro FS suggested a group effort a couple of weeks ago. Any of you guys already doing groups? I was thinking I might join an existing group, but I'm also mulling over the idea of creating one.
  10. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    Thanks, Monkey. I know it helped me today :)
  11. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    Well, another week in the bag. Now just the weekend to deal with. Wish me well, fellows.
  12. a short guy

    a short guy Well-Known Member

    I take it you made it through the weekend. Keep on going!
  13. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    Tempted again on Saturday, same deal.

    Bad feelings due to "procrastination." Haha, it was a Saturday, and I really wasn't procrastinating on anything but it felt like I was...

    The Temptation was to cover the feelings temporarily... classic elements of addiction.

    I just have to continue to make myself more disciplined so that I feel happier with what I've done on any given day. I believe that will help me tremendously to truly kill the addiction.
  14. digitalzone

    digitalzone Guest

    I have the same belief that having organized life improve many things and the most demotivating thought is that I have been postponing many things to the time I will be organized. To understand more, if I don´t get up early, I have big problems to started something important in long vision that day, simply because I didn´t get up that day early :D
  15. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    Well, I am finally getting around to making a new journal entry. I don't even remember the day that I initially began going wrong this time. It started with something on youtube - well, there were some instances of masturbation before that - anyway, I went through that "I'm-not seriously-going-to-call-that-porn, am I?" stage, yet it had broken my definition of porn. Well, a day or so later, I had viewed some things that I could not even pretend to justify, but I still did pretend. I felt discouraged for a couple of days, and did not visit my journal.

    I'm thankful for the chance to keep moving forward.
  16. TheAndersMan

    TheAndersMan Watch-and-Pray

    week 26 (what's left of it), 7/10 - 7/13 data ------> explanation here
    W26D4: SI4 - D1 - B4 - Sp5 - N4 - A4 - PA5 - S? 6 or 7.
  17. a short guy

    a short guy Well-Known Member

    Just stopped by to see how things are going. Peace.
  18. Daimon

    Daimon Member

    Hey, Anders my man! Been a minute, bro. Keep going strong, brother. Remember that you've got this. Btw, how's everything going with your real life support?
  19. a short guy

    a short guy Well-Known Member

    Hope you're well AndersMan.
  20. icandothis100

    icandothis100 New Member

    It's amazing that I found this post, it looks like our situations are basically the same. The only difference is that TheAndersMan posted this exactly one year ago and I'm now 21. I am most certainly looking for a change and a way to do it sheer will power by my part has not paid off.. I need any advice or positive influence anyone has.

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