Keep going man. I've been having a time with this myself. But I read something on here the other day that reminded me that I have improved. I used to do PMO everyday. Now I average like 4-5 times a month! For my brain, which incorrectly learned that sex involved porn and my hand, that's huge! Sure, it's not the perfect reset that I'd like to have, but I'm feeling better than I ever have before. And if I keep going then I can only look forward to the future and discovering who I really am. I can't speak for you, but I'd be willing to bet you've got bright things ahead too if you keep going. Stay strong dude!