Day #1: April 13, 2020 I am 44. Been an on/off porn addict since my early teens, so almost 30 years of addiction. There was a period in my twenties where I was really down under and depressed, consuming 3 to 4hrs of porn almost every day and having all the side effects...no relationships, ED, visiting hookers and massage parlors...even tried suicide once. I have come a long way but still fail into it regularly. Not on a daily basis, but sporadically, a week or two of sobriety followed by a week where I watch it for a couple of days. I am very tired of this on/off habit and want to make it permanent. So I will try again. One thing I want to try is keeping a daily journal here.