Re: Never Giving Up [Day 1] [Previous Record: Day 8] Almost three weeks since my last update. I thought I'd update once I reached the 7 day mark again but that didn't work out too well. I ended up relapsing every 2-4 days and eventually binged all of last week. Been feeling extremely hopeless and depressed these days. I'm so very unsatisfied with my life. I've understood that I'm always at the mercy of my emotions and that's one reason I find it hard to move forward. I can't really count on myself to stick to anything. My mindset is quite negative right now, hardened from my past experiences. Just about all of my memories suffer a negative taint and when I look to do something constructive I only see the problems it will bring. I wish I didn't have to see everything this way. The worst part is feeling powerless. I feel soft and fragile, like anyone or anything could break me. I've lost the confidence to do anything with myself because everywhere I look I just see things my life has missed out on. Friends, relationships, good experiences, positive influences. It's even hard for me to watch movies or shows because all I'm really seeing are things I wish I had. There's a part of me that feels like I wouldn't even know what to do if I got all these things because I'm so conditioned to feeling like I have nothing in my life. I came close to quitting my workouts but I've managed to keep that side of things going. Anyway, I'm firing up my journal again to keep track of my reboot progress. At least I didn't binge while I maintained the journal.