I'm starting a new journal because the older one was more like a relapse record lol. You can read my story here: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=625.0 I'm going to break up my 90 day goal into several sub-goals so I have some nearer goals to focus on (90 days seems like infinity lol): 3 days 7 days 15 days 30 days 45 days 60 days 75 days 90 days Day 0: I've decided not to change my original target of 90 days with no PMO. The fact is, it seems impossible to me but that's okay. I want to use this as an example of how long it takes me to achieve an impossible goal. Perhaps through it, I'll learn something about not giving up on whatever I set out to do because I do not want to look in the mirror everyday and see a quitter. I have a history of being a person who is easily discouraged and I don't want to let this join the ranks of the other endeavors I've given up on. What I've achieved since May: I'd say the biggest change has been that I'm not using porn to deal with my boredom or depression anymore. I know for a fact I'm more productive than I used to be and I'm thinking along clearer lines as opposed to the shame cycles I previously operated under. I've gone from using porn daily and PMOing 4-7 times a day to a weekly binge. I can't believe I'm going a whole week without porn lol. The next step will be eliminating porn from my life completely I suppose. This is going to be difficult because let's face it - I love porn. I absolutely do. Heck it's the only place I can see a stunning czech blonde naked and willing for the foreseeable future and I love naked women. Here are my replies to some of the comments after my last update. I can't thank you enough for the support guys. True, I do have to do this for myself. I think I lost sight of that as the lonely nights kept coming and I spent so much time alone. And yeah, I know I've progressed towards healing myself. There's no doubt about that. It just got me down after relapsing so many times. Thanks for the comment man. I understand. It looks dealing with these relapses has a learning curve of its own. Thanks for the input man but yeah, I don't know how much your approach would apply to me seeing that I've faced ED problems in the past.