NEVER AGAIN

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by Gonnabeatthis, Nov 3, 2013.

  1. getoutside

    getoutside New Member

    Congrats on 300!! :) wow!
     
  2. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    Thank you, though the days mean very little to me.

    I'd rather have 100 days and no ED than 300 days, lol. ;D
     
  3. getoutside

    getoutside New Member

    with 100% respect -- do you think that maybe your ED isn't porn induced at this point? ED can be caused by lots of things.

    Have you tried anything with a girl recently? Are you sure you still have it? :)
     
  4. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    Yes I have thought of this. And maybe this is induced from chronic stress. I didn't have a good vacation for years now, and this year I didn't even take one day off work.
    In 2 weeks I will have one week to myself, I will try to do some sports again and to relax completely. :)

    @ Recovery:

    I am having morning wood again at about 80% strength one week after my wet dream. A very good sign don't you think?

    I am thinking of the recovery process as a try-and-error-cycle and I think there are just a few of those cycles ahead of me. :D
     
  5. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Yes, I do think you're recovering or close to recovery.
     
  6. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    Sup guys,

    lately I am having this weird phase where I get an erection out of nowhere (no feeling down there though) followed by headaches.

    Maybe it's a sign that this try-and-error phase is happening faster and faster?
     
  7. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    If you're getting erections out of nowhere, it's time to rewire with a woman.
     
  8. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    They are not very good. Could be better.
     
  9. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    You need to rewire sooner or later, also, your erections and libido could be low until you orgasm and then it comes back.
     
  10. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    Hi guys,

    I am flatlining again. :mad:

    It's so frustrating to see all those half naked women during summer and not being able to get it on with them. ;D

    Those wet dreams are resetting me big time I think.
    It's not as bad as being on day 1 but the WD easily throws me back about 2 months progress-wise.

    I think those wet dreams are the attempt of my body to "recalibrate" - does this make sense to you?

    Anyways, I am finally having a break from work this week, I will do everything I can to chill the fuck out. Jogging in the morning, meditation and drinking tee instead of coffee.
     
  11. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    How many WD's are you having?
     
  12. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    About one every 100 days (+- 30 days) so far, so 3 or 4 in total.

    And always when I get a tiny shred of libido, a week later a WD follows and I flatline again for months...
     
  13. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    I don't think it's setting you back at all.
     
  14. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    I think I need to focus more on the psychological side of rebooting.
    All this waiting, working out, didn't do much in terms of ED.

    I think the problem is this self-arousal that my brain still does every once in a while (about once a day, sometimes more, sometimes less). I need to get this fixed and gain control over this issue.

    I tried meditating often during this reboot but I didn't get into this self-hypnosis like I did in my earlier reboots.
    Somehow I don't have the key to my subconscious anymore... :-\
     
  15. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    If this worked for you in earlier reboots then you need to start doing it again!
     
  16. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    Watched Episode 6 of the first Season from the series True Detective yesterday.

    There was a woman, man was she hot, and she had a sex scene which I skipped almost completely (15 sec jumps, only saw split seconds).

    And afterwards I had to fight the urge to watch the scene. Didn't give in of course, but am so on edge right now, slept bad and woke up with some precum in my pants...
    Fuck I hate my life right now.
     
  17. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    Still on edge and I don't know why. Trying to calm down.
     
  18. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Did you ever masturbate to movie scenes on your television or computer before? If so, that is porn to you.
     
  19. Gonnabeatthis

    Gonnabeatthis New Member

    No I didn't, not that I remember.
    Also I skipped this shit and just saw a glimpse of boobs...

    Before watching that series I was at a swimming pool, with lots of good looking women in bikinis, but I had no libido or erections there.

    And the night before I smoked a joint.

    Maybe it is a combination of all factors here or this just had to happen again in my reboot.
    I am starting to normalize right now so I think I'll be fine.

    Top priority now for me will be stopping the fantasizing.
     
  20. 40New30

    40New30 Keep going

    Yes, you'll be fine, I agree! Marijuana can cause anxiety in some.
     

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