I would not hold my breath to expect your wife to give you any enthusiastic response for telling things like that. I echo what I (and others in here) have wrote before, that only thing man can try to get from his woman is respect by more doing and succeeding than with talking. You either got it or do not. I have firm belief that (at least most) woman just lack the interest or understanding for men's problems at all. By telling them about those things we just lose yet more of that precious and hard-earned respect they might give for us. Many of your thoughts echo very strongly what I have been going through during last years (albeit you are far ahead of me in rebooting). I too bear the constant burden how I have lost the game with women, how I have not even tried and seem not to have any favorable response or spark of interest from them at all. It truly is the painful wound, which feeds strongly my depression too. But my SO is not the right place to tell about it. Im grateful if able to see sexologist soon and then I try to go through these things on my own and with the help of this great arena, this board. Currently Im in the mental state of acceptance. That Ok, I lack that self-confidence, spark of life, success in life, right kind of energy whatever what makes some guys attractive in women's eyes. I simply lack that now and can accept it as now. But I can enjoy my life nonetheless, by focusing to this journey of self-discovery, which makes me more stronger, understanding and balanced being. I have thought a lot about going and trying to have an affair for more sexual self-confidence and acceptance too, but still have a lot of second thoughts about that too. It could be wrong way, something that makes just more pain in life than give that thing I seek after. What Im trying to tell in here that Im very interested about your tale and progress, following it closely. Keep up the good work and dont let anyone bring you feel down. You are a worthy man and at the right road, trying to be a better man and a better person. Btw. Its kind of ironic when you said that women do not like skinny guys. My SO would trade me with one very happily, because she do not like at all my broad shoulders and quite robust body, preferring sexually more skinny-looking guys. Women have very different tastes and preferences how their men should look like.