Last night I had intense fantasies flash in my head while I was trying to fall asleep. Some were with my fiance others were kinda P related. I would always try to change my mind. But they kept coming back. I tried to analyze why this was happening. I felt very anxious like I was not good enough. My relationship ship anxiety was high. I was also anxious about maybe never getting the use of my dick back. I told my self, before the addiction stopped me from feeling these things. The addiction wanted me to mute this out. I need to feel these emotions to be healthy. I need to analyze these feelings and find their origin. It became clear the pattern I kept doing in the past. I used porn and masterbation to sooth myself. I need to learn to sooth myself in other ways. Aside from that I had some more nocturnal erections. But woke up today with no morning wood. I'm feeling very fragile today. But I can smile and know I'm a good path to heal. I just hope I get my erections back and get out of this PIED.