So here it goes. Total honesty. Me male 11 years old my brother 16 shows me a video. Won't go into detail. But this was my first exposure to sex. I wanted to watch more. Summer holidays I stayed inside. My 56k modem was getting a workout. I'd spend hours watching and wanking. But I found it would get kinkier by the week. Watch alkinds of twisted stuff. Around the age of 15 I start wanting to do some of these acts. I open up a message board and start chatting. A couple in their early 40. We meetup. But there was no woman just him. We go back to his place and we'll things happened. I was acting out the things I saw in these videos. Fast forward to now. I'm 35 and have been stuck in this femdom cuck loop. And it's screwing with my mind. My confidence and my erection. My fiance is having patience with me. But this confidence is lacking everywhere. Even at work. In the bedroom and relationship anxiety. So I need help. I booked an appointment with a sex therapist on the 5of Oct. My goals right now No porn. Jerking 2 times a week Sex with wife 2 -3 times a week Jog every day. Sit ups push up. Work hard at my job Try and push the negative anxious thoughts out Any advice would be appreciated!