Day 50. What seems to help me this time is, that I realized the agenda behind Porn. My main problem over the last decades was almost always the urge to watch porn and than followed by the urge to masturbate to it. Not the other way around, like having the urge to masturbate and than watching porn, that was not the case. Watching porn seems to be an escape from all the negative feelings I have because I avoided life and held onto the past which made me bitter and sarcastic. I came about the saying, if the product is free, you are the product. The question was always there in the back of my mind, why is limitless porn out on the internet for free. I mean, the production of it is not free, why would anyone put this videos on redt. and pornh. and all the countless other sites on the net, put it out there for free for everyone to watch? The principal method for the porn industry seems to be to draw people in with free content and to then upsell them with niche services or value added products. In total, the porn industry is estimated to produce $15 billion in profits per year, which is actually a greater amount than Hollywood, so their methods work very well for them. Almost all the main sites are owned by one company, Mindgeek. The owners are from the same tribe as the ones who own and run Hollyweird, the fake media and fake news and even the FED. Realizing this gives me even more reason to never want to watch these sites again and no longer be a stupid sheep which is addicted to their products used to destroy society. They did destroy women and the family with feminism, they destroy men and the family with porn and they destroy the children with gender education to take away their identity and make them hatefull with teaching them CRT. I hope I will never fall again into this trapp of destruction. The first things A.H. did when he came to power was to ban and illegalize by law pornography and interests on money in Germany and the country started to prosper. Something to think about. But also I wanted to add, that I don´t want to externalize the problem like I did in the past. It was my decission to go to these sites to watch porn for free. There will always be temptations out there, be it whatever it is, and I can not blame the temptations for being out there or the people who put them out there and try to make money of the suckers who fall for them, it is and always was my responsibility to make the healthiest choice for me, my mental and physical health. Otherwise it would be like blaming McDonalds and the shareholders of McDonalds for making money of unhealthy food for my poor decission making for eating their unhealthy food when I have an heart attack.