Yesterday evening I went to a small political meeting of around 150 People of a new Party for whom I voted at the last election 2017. I always voted after my 18 birthday, but never went to a political Assembly. Two times I even said something during the Meeting. Not that it matters much, but I received even approval for what I said, and I would lie if I said that it didnt feel good to get Validation from other men and women. It may not seem much for others, but this was a huge step for me. Afterwards, my inner critical voice came up to remind me that this or that I could have said better, but I was able to remind me that I´m quiet at the beginning of standing up for my self and my opinion about something and that this too is a learning process. I was able to be quiet happy with myself afterwards. I havent had any more wet dreams but a few havy urges mainly after watching series with scenes of intimacy in them. It is quiet difficult to avoid them when watching movies because they are every where. What I noticed also is, that I seem to get aroused more easily even when there is only a kissing Scene in a movie. This may Sound weird, but on two occassions I felt the desire to kiss or simple touch a women, without thinking about fucking her. In one way I feel more masculine and in other areas more sensitive. I´m still procrastinating a lot with things I know I need to do but dont like to do them. I should think less and simply do them.