Hi. First of all I want to apologies for my english, I´m not a native english speaker. I will soon be 40 years old and my life for me at the moment seems to be empty and worthless. I struggled with PMO for about the last 22 years now. I started to PMO out of loneliness, frustration, stress, sadness and depression. I was to insecure and far way to timid to talk to others about my feelings or to search for help. At this time for me the PMO was the easiest and in my mind the only way to find a bit of relief and a way out of the hard reality, even if it was only for a few minutes. First I PMO with normal fotos of women like in catalogs because I was to ashamed to buy porn. That was the soft start into a hard and over a two decades now existing addiction. To make it short, soon I bought sex catalogs, sex videos and in 1998 I bought my first Computer and the first thing after going online was to look after porn. Since than I was a consumer of it more or less nearly every day. After getting more depressed I wanted to quit several times, with the best streak of 25days without watching P. I always have been very shy, timid and insecure. Even when girls wanted to be with me, during University or Work I was not able to connect with them. I remember one girl wrote me an email, inviting me to go out with her and I felt too worthless to write back. I also was not able to notice the signals from her, that she licked me, before she wrote the email. That was and still is to some way a big issue, that I often (nearly always) feel like disconected from other people. Like we say here, the fifth weel of the car. After watching YBOP 6 weeks ago, it was like a big weight was taken from my shoulders, I still feel ashame and guilty for my obsession and addiction but nothing compared how I felt before. Reading trough this forum I don´t feel so alone with my problem any more. This videos from YBOP are the best thing what could have happened to me. Even if I fall back, I´m willing now to fight and stand up again after a relapse. Thanks Underdog for this site and in case Gary Wilson maybe reads this one day, many thanks to you for all your effort with the videos and your site. I´m now near my 40th birthday and I´m willing to fight until I get rid of this addiction witch ruined my life till now.