Hello everyone, I am 22 years old and been watching porn and masturbating to it since I was 16. I first started masturbating when I was 14 I think but it was without porn. Slowely as I discovered porn, I started masturbating to it. Anyways, I am trying to quit pmo for almost a year now. I have had a few success but the longest I went is 22 days only. I have reached the 3-week mark for 3-4 times only. I never knew that I messed my brain up to this point that it would be this difficult. My biggest problem is porn. I just cant live without porn. The urges sometimes makes me cringe and it seems impossible to control when the furious urges hit. I was at day 16 last monday but everything went down after I relapsed this monday. I relapsed twice on porn on monday, once on tuesday and once today. The chaser was too hard to control. Sometimes I ask myself if I have gone too far and if I will ever be able to recover fully. I sometimes feel my brain is damaged beyond repair. I have tried many things but I have failed hundreds of times. I dont know what else to try now to recover. I even destryoed my old laptop on which I use to watch porn. But then I started watching porn at the local libraries. I know that I could even end up in jail if I continue like this. I have lost all the battles so far I have fought against porn. I just dont know what to do now. My motivation level has hit the bottom. Life is soo depressing after every relapse. Sorry about this negative rant but I felt like letting all out. I know many guys here and on reuniting.com who are on same boat as me. I will post topics here everyday as each day passes. Hopefully, the comments and blogging here will keep me motivated. Thanks and good luck to everyone.