I am 47 and have been using porn since my early teens. I have just started my journey with not using porn - I have managed about a week and a half so far. I have deleted all of the porn from my iPad and most of it from my laptop. I don't seem to have any real urge to watch what I have left there and I guess I will probably just delete it. I don't feel that I want to delete it at the moment though. I feel I have made some bad decisions in my life, regularly watching porn being one of them, but also in my choice of relationships. My partner of 12 years rarely had sex with me and I think this might have fuelled my need to watch porn. I have tried stopping before but never really managed. I have made a few appointments with different therapists in the past, but found it too difficult to go ahead with it. I'm pretty ashamed of it. After a difficult two years with lockdown, a nervous breakdown and a divorce, I feel I have turned a corner with coping with my mental health issues. I am currently on antidepressants (Sertraline) and have found no real urge to view any porn in the last week and a half. I have been keeping myself busy, but I am not really counting the days. I think that the antidepressants are helping, however I do want to stop using them at some point. At the suggestion of another forum member I have been listening to the book “your brain on porn” on audible. Since I have last stopped viewing porn, I have found that my libido has dropped and I have only masterbated once. It was good to have this validated by the book. At the moment I feel quite empowered and that stopping watching porn is a good decision.