(This thread is for me to write down my thoughts and experiences throughout my journey to recovery. You are more than welcome to comment on things if you wish, feel free to read it if you wish, however, I intend to use this as my journal for all to read. There isn't lock or nor is it a hidden secret thoughts journal. It's open for all to see who are going through the same thing. I hope this helps others the same ways it's helping me.) So I had my first group therapy last night, including me, there were 6 participants. It was a very comfortable atmosphere. I was the newbie, but when it came my turn to speak and answer questions I never felt pressured or out of place. Now, this meeting was court ordered for everyone there, I was the only one who took preventative measures. The guys in there did things, physical things which landed them in prison. I'm saying this because Pornography use develops and gets worse over time. The "normal" stuff just doesn't do it anymore for some people. Sooner or later, pornography becomes something other than a perversion. It becomes this drug for some people. Studies have shown a porn user and a heroin users brains are the same under a CT scan, the dopamine levels are the same. The reward center reacts the same as heroin!! Heroin is one of, if not the most addictive substance that I know of. I've seen my brother lose so much over this choice of drugs. Little did I know, I was participating in the digital form of heroin. I'm so glad I decided to do research on my own and seek help for this. Education is power and another tool we can use to defeat this horrible addiction.