Hello, my name is Emmanuel. I am 26 years old and I have been dealing with porn addiction probably since I was around 13 years old. I think it really started with the advent of Internet. I remember sneaking into my brother's room to use the PS3 so I can use the browser and then my addiction really kicked off when I acquired an iPod Touch and mobile porn became really available. I think I am using it to escape the problems that I have and procrastinate on. Anyways, I think I am getting ahead of myself. Lets start with who I am now and where I have been. I had previously been on this website when I was a sophomore and senior in college. So I guess you can say I have been battling with this addiction on and off for a while now. I am currently in a good place in my career and I feel like I have a good support system. My health however, is definitely not in a place where I want it to be. I am 290 lbs, albeit I have lost 20 pounds since last June (possibly more since I was afraid to weigh myself) and I spend hours on hours looking at screens. I know that this first entry seems all over the place but I think it just is because I haven't written or read in a while. I really let my attention span drop lately but I want somewhere to write about it so that I can be accountable to my self and others. Anyone have any suggestions to stay on the wagon? I had recently given up cigarettes as well! I am over 250 days clean, but cigarettes are ironically far harder to obtain then my hand and porn. Anyways, thats the first entry for now. I don't know what I am going to start doing to really get over this addiction. I think I need to occupy my time more with cleaning, reading, and taking my sleep more seriously. We will see. Anyone out there? I hope I am not shouting into the void. I am going to take time to read other journals and respond and be a part of this community. I wish everyone well in their journey and I am going to try my best to make this an everyday part of my routines. Thank you all, Emmanuel
Hey mate. Good luck in this. I've been doing this for over a year and one thing that helps me to at least come back to this website is that I update the counter every time I relapse. So I would suggest setting up the counter on the main page.
Hello all, I fell off the wagon again. I guess I am just putting pen to paper. I guess I can do better. I hope everyone is well. A couple things have happened the past few days and I think I am going to try to get back at it. I am wishing everyone well. Emmanuel
