My New and Old Journey

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by RN Trying to Make it, Jan 27, 2022.

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  1. Hello, my name is Emmanuel. I am 26 years old and I have been dealing with porn addiction probably since I was around 13 years old. I think it really started with the advent of Internet. I remember sneaking into my brother's room to use the PS3 so I can use the browser and then my addiction really kicked off when I acquired an iPod Touch and mobile porn became really available. I think I am using it to escape the problems that I have and procrastinate on.

    Anyways, I think I am getting ahead of myself. Lets start with who I am now and where I have been. I had previously been on this website when I was a sophomore and senior in college. So I guess you can say I have been battling with this addiction on and off for a while now. I am currently in a good place in my career and I feel like I have a good support system. My health however, is definitely not in a place where I want it to be. I am 290 lbs, albeit I have lost 20 pounds since last June (possibly more since I was afraid to weigh myself) and I spend hours on hours looking at screens.

    I know that this first entry seems all over the place but I think it just is because I haven't written or read in a while. I really let my attention span drop lately but I want somewhere to write about it so that I can be accountable to my self and others. Anyone have any suggestions to stay on the wagon? I had recently given up cigarettes as well! I am over 250 days clean, but cigarettes are ironically far harder to obtain then my hand and porn. Anyways, thats the first entry for now. I don't know what I am going to start doing to really get over this addiction. I think I need to occupy my time more with cleaning, reading, and taking my sleep more seriously. We will see. Anyone out there? I hope I am not shouting into the void. I am going to take time to read other journals and respond and be a part of this community. I wish everyone well in their journey and I am going to try my best to make this an everyday part of my routines.

    Thank you all,

    Emmanuel
     
  2. Wise Hermit

    Wise Hermit Member

    Hey mate. Good luck in this. I've been doing this for over a year and one thing that helps me to at least come back to this website is that I update the counter every time I relapse. So I would suggest setting up the counter on the main page.
     
  3. Hello all, I fell off the wagon again. I guess I am just putting pen to paper. I guess I can do better. I hope everyone is well. A couple things have happened the past few days and I think I am going to try to get back at it. I am wishing everyone well.

    Emmanuel
     

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