My Journey

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by chrisj86, Jan 23, 2018.

  1. chrisj86

    chrisj86 New Member

    Finally came to realise that I am now at an age where i can no longer go on with this addiction to porn, or I am going to walk up one day and say 'What the hell have I done with my life?'

    I am 31 years old and for as long as I can remember I have been addicted to porn and that addiction has led to where I now find myself in life - never had a girlfriend , never had sex, currently unemployed (had a job up to a few months ago when I told myself that I wanted better so left, but since then haven't had the motivation to look for another), still living with my parents (I'm the oldest of my siblings and yet they are all off living their own lives; houses of their own, etc).

    I have been using porn now for around 16 years and in that time I have seen my tastes morph to a point that if I was to show my 18 year-old self the stuff I now regularly masturbate to, he would be shocked and sickened. I don't like the person I have become and porn seems to have sapped me of any confidence or motivation I once had.
    I want to be a better person and the only way to become that is to rid myself of porn.

    In the last month I have attended my two siblings weddings and at each event it really struck home to me just how lonely I am, looking around at all the other couples in attendance and me there by myself. Porn is the reason I am alone, it has stripped me of all that I could have been, and to continue to give into its temptations I will never become the person I wish to be.

    Today is Day 1.
     
  2. Fry2

    Fry2 Well-Known Member

  3. typicalme

    typicalme Member

    Hey, welcome to the boards. Just wanted to say that, based on your first post, I see huge potential for success. You've identified the problem and you seriously want to change, and you're taking the first steps. Looking forward to seeing your streak grow.
     

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