Hi, I am very frustrated with my addiction. I have a very tough time getting through the no PMO challenge. I have been researching dopamine levels & of course this lead me to YourBrainOnPorn so I have been aware of the resources. I think myself to be an attractive guy who has had some great experiences with women, but they always seem to be very rare & sparse. I believe, & know, that my relationships have suffered because of my addiction to pornography. I am 22 years old and have been addicted since a young age. I may have survived a sexual trauma, but I am not sure because I do not remember. I know that sexual trauma, though, was in my family and I may have been affected by it. I have had some minor success with no PMO. The longest I have gone, that I have recorded, was nearly 21 days, but I can't seem to go further. I want to go further and I believe I can, but am I missing something? I feel so great & confident then, so I know how it tastes, but it takes so long to get there that when I slip up I get so depressed because I don't have the patience to get up and try again. I live by myself, no girlfriend, and have almost zero social life because I spend the time away from the main city. Maybe these are excuses? God, I hope not. I will try to keep these posts short, but I feel like I should give the reader a background so they can relate and sort of know my story. Some days I feel that if I had a girl I could fill that intimacy void that drives me to PMO. I put a filter on my PC, K9, but I overrode the password at 14 days. Now I have binged, but enough is enough I say. I remember that when I get around 2-3 weeks I seem to get really lazy which eventually leads me to PMO. I hope I can go further this time and finally reach 6 weeks at least, even this will make me happy. It is so tempting when you've abstained so long and feels so good it's easy to lose complete control. This is really tough :-\ but I have hope I can finally kick this addiction along with my video game habit which I believe reinforces my PMO. I have a business that I started up a few months ago and it is doing pretty well so I can occupy myself with this and making music, both are related. Do you guys have anything that motivates you each day? I find that this works well for me, but every time I slip I feel the old stuff I was using isn't as effective. Thanks for reading this and I really wish I can man up to this and finally become the man I've always wanted to be: comfortable in his own skin & PMO free.