my journey through insanity

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by confusedindividual, Feb 6, 2015.

  1. Man this is a hard one to beat. I arrived to 90 days (just about) then masturbated without porn one evening cause i couldn't sleep. I feel like I'm afraid of having sex with an actual women seeing as my sexual experiences were so humliating. I lost my virginity to a prostitute at 19 and had a hard time staying hard let alone ejaculate. Two years later at the age of 21 i was hospitalized in a mental hospital because i was chronically depressed and had sex with a 39 year old women i was unable to stay hard again. All that because i had been watching shitloads of porn and real sex didn't really match the porn i had been watching. It fucked me up big time. Later on I had a relationship with an older woman and i would get hard when we kissed and cuddled but we never had sex. And since then years have gone by...
     
  2. kopp

    kopp Member

    replace these old, bad experiences by new good experiences :)
     
  3. Also i didn't mention after i exhausted every single heterosexual fetish in the book (grannies, squirting, anal fisting, pissing, lesbian...etc) I found myself getting turned on by gay porn.
     

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