31/08/2018 Wednesday was a nice day. Spent the day with my Mum, enjoying a meal and looking around the local attractions of a sea side town. It reminded me that we don't spend enough time together. I would like that to change. I had typical symptoms of depression throughout most of the day including emptiness, lack of connection with others. I also just wanted to escape the present moment. I nevertheless valued the time I shared with my mum. My mood picked up when I went to the SA meeting. It helped that I hadn't seen my fellow addicts for about three weeks, and it was great to reestablish the connection we all share over this addiction. I was feeling apprehensive Thursday about working with my new boss. My fears were unfounded as I knew that they would be. It was a good day overall, and we had the chance to get to know each other a bit better, which I enjoyed. Today has been productive and on ballance quite a good one. It is good for my self esteem when I can get through some activities on my next action lists. I am still looking after the house so quite a few activities have been domestic work. I cooked myself a delicious curry earlier. All of these activities foster a sense of independence, which is really good for me. Have also been working on another speech and a job application. As a result, I am feeling quite positive today, but, of course, low level anxiety remains in the background. I have been practising EFT with regularity over the last few days, having finally got round to putting together my own tapping tree from 'The tapping solution' book. The plan is to work through clearing the traumatic memories on my tapping tree on a daily basis. This is a method that is recommended by practitioners. I really do think that there is something to EFT, although I don't have sufficient personal evidence to decide yet whether I agree with the whole narrative in the book. I just find that it is helpful for getting less caught up in my thoughts, particularly if there is a worry that I can't seem to let go of.