Back again,to start fresh - history: I'm 28 years old,I'm a porn addict & have been for at least 6 years.The last few years I've spent the majority of my time at home PMO'ing and wasting my life. I have no job,car or social life and I have been diagnosed with clinical/major depression and general anxiety disorder. After a horrible second half of 2013,struggling to quit has really hit me hard.I managed to go 90 days no O last year,since then my best 2 runs were 11 days and 15 days.The reason I'm finding it hard to stop is because I don't have a life at all.Porn is really the only thing I get any sort of pleasure at all from. After a horrible Christmas and New Years spent alone,I relapsed on day 15 on New Year's Eve.I started spiraling out of control and I left the forum and decided "fuck it I'll just forget I ever heard about YBOP,YBR and all the other nofap shit" - stupid decision,I know deep down that in order to live the life I want to live,I have to reboot.There's no alternative,I can't keep PMO'ing because #1,it fries my brain and fucks me up in many ways,and #2 because I can never just pretend that PMO'ing is normal anymore,I can't ever go back to just thinking it isn't 'bad' for me. I've been having intense suicidal thoughts,I just can't live like this anymore,but I feel trapped.Like no matter how much effort I put in ill still be a fucked up loser who can't socialize or pick up women. I've burnt some bridges here in the past due to my anger problems but I decided I need to come back as I need the support,have some big changes coming my way next month.