Mate you need to find another way to deal with your feelings. Sometimes you have to jsut sit in it and not try to escape it. And then you need to find healthier outles for release. So for me when. I was in school I would procrastinate and feel stressed. Then I would PMO to numb myself from those feelings but then make myself even more anxious viscious cycle. Think the issue is avoidance. Addressing the avoidance will help you. I would look up some strategies on that and focus more on that then the porn. Becuase it sounds the same as me. This really helped me maybe it could help you? I did work through this in talk therapy with a professional though. The more shame you feel the worse your chaser is going to be. So pick yourself up quick and dont beat yourself up, but expect more of yourself in a healthy way. You are strong and you can do this.